Why Would A Gay Teenager Commit Hate Crimes Against Herself?

Why Would A Gay Teenager Commit Hate Crimes Against Herself?

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Why Would A Gay Teenager Commit Hate Crimes Against Herself?
Ten years ago, a liberal San Francisco suburb was traumatized by a rash of hate crimes against a 17-year-old lesbian. But when it was revealed that the victim herself had staged the attacks, the entire community turned on her and she never spoke about the incidents publicly. Until now. View this image › Illustration by […]

Ten years ago, a liberal San Francisco suburb was traumatized by a rash of hate crimes against a 17-year-old lesbian. But when it was revealed that the victim herself had staged the attacks, the entire community turned on her and she never spoke about the incidents publicly. Until now.

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Mrs. K can’t remember what it was specifically that made her suspicious. Maybe how the eggs were splattered on the Jeep, or maybe her daughter’s disposition. “I was starting to think, There’s something wrong here,” she says once she finally allows me to turn on a tape recorder. She doesn’t want me to do this story and two nights ago tried to talk her daughter out of cooperating. Her daughter is a teacher now, and the reality is that having all this, all the hateful words — the fabricated ones and the real ones that followed — dredged back up could harm them both. I assure her I won’t be using either of their names.

It’s been 15 years, probably, since I’ve seen Mrs. K, and she looks the same, but slimmer. Her hair is still long and golden. We sit in her living room, almost knee to knee. A vase of fresh-cut daffodils stands on the coffee table. If I’m going to tear open these old wounds, she wants me to at least have the right information, so an hour into my visit, she stands up, walks to a cabinet behind me, and takes out two white binders. Inside these are just about every email she ever sent to the school and the police and others; a calendar she’d made documenting every act of vandalism, death threat, and venomous anti-gay slur; newspaper clippings; the fliers. And then the court petition, probation documents. She insists she hasn’t opened the binders since she made them. “I have every piece of correspondence from my divorce,” she explains. “I have my tax records for the last 10 years. This is how I roll.”

Soon after the Jeep was egged, she did confront her daughter — we can call her Mary — at the Cheesecake Factory, but was convinced to back off. Those were hard years. She’d gone back to work and separated from her husband as her older daughter had gone off to college back East. There were tuition bills, bitter fights, a restraining order, an ever-waning trickle of alimony. She was working six days a week at some points. She remembers one night even taking work she had to do out to the car, watching the house through the night, trying to catch whoever was attacking Mary. And Mary, who’d always been independent, was drifting from her. “I had absolutely no control over her whatsoever,” she says.

“I remember the people that were sympathetic — like this note,” she says, holding up a greeting card from PTA representatives, still in its envelope, opening it with care. “‘Dear Tam Student and Family, we’re writing to offer friendship, support,’” her voice breaks, “‘and solidarity with your family during this tremendously difficult time.’ I’m telling you this meant so much to me. They’ll never know.” She shakes her head and wipes tears from her cheeks.

“So many people had expressed sympathy and now those same people were angry, too, that she had fooled them and did I know. I got that question a lot: Did I know?” Though they’d already planned to move out of Mill Valley before the truth came out, the timing was certainly serendipitous. “I literally could not go to the grocery store,” she says.

She tells me emphatically about how Mary met all the conditions of her probation, how she immediately enrolled in community college, and from there, state school; from there, her teaching program. How good her grades were. Their relationship has healed.

“I do think she feels she needs to be an upstanding citizen now, that she needs to be the person that she was always capable of being. She is going to be that role model, that mentor, that leader of young people who are struggling, because she’s been there.”

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Tamalpais High School is over 100 years old, which is really old for California. Its white stucco buildings are arranged on a steep green hill, and a clock tower stands at its center, fringed by sycamores, overlooking the intersection of Miller Avenue and Camino Alto in Mill Valley. It serves about 1,100 students from the southernmost chunk of Marin County, which borders San Francisco via the Golden Gate Bridge. The county and Mill Valley specifically are white and affluent and very liberal: Its median home price is more than $1 million and fewer than 1 in 8 are registered Republicans. Its redwood-shaded canyons are home to many helicopter parents and Priuses and some celebrities — film producers, actors, rockers of ‘60s and ‘70s repute. The weather is almost without exception pleasant. Days often begin shrouded in fog, but by midday it usually burns off, revealing the mountain, for which the school is named, rising 2,500 feet above, green skirts laid out around it. Locals mostly call the mountain, and the school, Tam.

It was characteristically pleasant the Monday morning of Nov. 1, 2004, when Vice Principal Candace Curtis was alerted on her walkie-talkie that she needed to go down to Ruby Scott Gym, to the girls’ locker room. Curtis, a petite woman with a mess of brown hair, had been working in the schools for over two decades, first as a teacher, and for the last dozen or so as an administrator. In the cement-floored, low-lit locker room, a custodian pointed out what he’d found. It had been done with a ballpoint pen, evidently. The three letters were blocky and strange but what they said was clear: “FAG.”

Ms. Curtis determined that the locker belonged to Mary, who was a senior and active on several sports teams. Ms. Curtis didn’t know whether she was in fact a lesbian, though, like many, wouldn’t have been surprised if she were. She was heavyset. Her light brown hair was buzzed into a crew cut and she dressed in more masculine clothes — collared shirts, plain T-shirts, baggy jeans. When Ms. Curtis called Mary to the office and explained what had happened, her reaction was hard to parse, but she accepted an offer to go home early. She asked only that Ms. Curtis not tell her mother why. The locker was repainted.

A few days later, her mother did find out, and that Sunday wrote Ms. Curtis a pointed email. Her daughter, she explained, had been under a lot of stress as of late, so much so that just two weeks before she’d asked the school counselor for a psychiatrist referral. She could not believe that Ms. Curtis wouldn’t have alerted her of this obviously troubling incident. Ms. Curtis hardly had time to reply before the second graffiti was discovered, on Monday. This time it was on the door of the girl’s white Jeep. Again those same odd, blocky letters, only larger: “DIE FAGGOT.”

A week later, on Nov. 14, a note was found on her windshield, one that’d been typed up large enough to fill the piece of paper. “YOU CAN RUN BUT YOU CAN’T HIDE,” it read, “WE KNOW WHERE YOU LIVE. WHEN WE’RE DONE WITH YOU YOU WILL BURN IN HELL.” The next day, the gym locker again, “RUN FAG RUN,” as well as urine. This, Curtis and others presumed, was probably the work of a man, and yet how did a man not only go into the girls’ locker room without being noticed, she wondered, but know which was the correct locker? The administration, her counselors, and now the police, asked Mary again and again who might be behind these attacks, whether she could recall anyone bullying or stalking her. She said she had no idea. She said she couldn’t recall being victimized on account of her sexuality before.

Soon Mary confided in her small group of friends about what was happening. They were horrified. One of her best friends, Nina Hirten, recalls: “I identify as bisexual and I know plenty of other kids when I was there identified themselves as not straight. Maybe it’s going to be me [next]. Who’s going to write on my car?” But then it became clear whomever it was was targeting Mary: “That’s fucking lame,” Hirten recalls thinking. “In some ways she’s an easy target because she’s obvious and outspoken and well-known and makes herself known.”

Rumors spread. Nobody official gave a name, but nobody needed to. We heard a girl, a senior, an athlete, was the victim of anti-gay attacks, and we guessed rightly who was meant. Mary and I had been friends in middle school, but by senior year, we had grown apart. I wouldn’t have felt comfortable approaching her and saying I was sorry about what was happening. This is partly because I had no real confirmation she was the victim, but also because whatever was happening to her was embarrassing and strange. Years later, I wondered if this was cowardly.

On Nov. 19, a note was found under her doormat at home: “THEY MAKE IT HARDER BUT NOT IMPOSSIBLE AND WE ONLY FIGHT HARDER THIS IS YOUR LAST WARNING WE’RE AROUND EVERY CORNER AND IT’S TIME.” Two days later, in the evening, Mary went out to her car. She noticed an egg had been smashed on the back of it, and saw another on the ground nearby. It was then, she’d later tell authorities, that a third struck her in the temple. She looked up, she told them, shocked, confused, and heard laughing and unintelligible yelling. When sheriffs arrived on scene, emotions were running high. They had to separate Mary and her mother so they could calm them down and get statements. When they investigated the scene, authorities also discovered “FAGMOBILE” scrawled in dirt on the car.

“She never saw who it was,” Mill Valley Police Department Captain Jim Wickham told the Marin Independent Journal that week in the first news story about the incidents. “It may be students; that’s one thing we’re looking at.” Multiple former classmates who are gay but weren’t yet out now cite the incident with the eggs as one that scared them the most — the idea that she’d been followed home.

In late November, they found “FAG CLASS” on the doors of one of her classrooms. In early December, it was “DIE FAG” spray-painted red in two-and-a-half-foot-tall letters in the school’s central Keyser Hall, a location that investigators noted the victim had to pass to get to her first class. “DIE FAGGOT” was found scrawled on the girl’s bathroom door. “FAG CLASS” on another classroom. Around this time the sheriff and police department devoted further resources to the investigation; the FBI was contacted. Still, as the IJ reported, “No suspects have been identified.”

“The mother was calling me constantly,” Ms. Curtis says. “‘How are you keeping my daughter safe?’” She didn’t have a good answer. No matter what she did, she would get another call early in the morning across the walkie-talkie, a custodian saying she better get down and take a look at something. “My stomach would just get in knots. I was on edge every day for all those months, never knowing when something else was going to happen.”

When she’d worked at another high school in the county a few years prior, Curtis remembered the IJ “blasting” the school because of some what she terms “racial incidences” that had occurred. On an impulse, with no permission, and certainly no budget, she and her secretary designed and ordered a big banner and had it hung from the clock tower. “I had no idea when I got it how expensive it was going to be,” she says now, chuckling. It read: “AccepTance, compAssion, eMpathy.”

Curtis made a point of attending the Gay–Straight Alliance meetings, which were now occurring weekly; Mary was co-president. A letter was sent to the students and their families by Principal Chris Holleran, detailing the crimes and their efforts to curtail them, including the “establishment of a $1,000 reward for information, support services for the targeted student, and promotion of our anonymous tip line.” Fliers littered campus. “Got information?” they asked, adding, “It’s your community.” Another of the victim’s friends began a campaign passing out rainbow ribbons.

Finally, one night, police seemed to catch a lead: They caught three students on campus dressed in camouflage. This included the 18-year-old Perry twins, who were somewhat infamous around campus and town, always, it seemed, protesting their innocence to a hall monitor or jumping off something tall. Police drew firearms and got them on the ground. Their 17-year-old companion was released, but the Perrys were photographed and fingerprinted and charged with trespassing while detectives tried to get them to confess to the crimes. But they insisted they’d been trying to solve the crimes: “We were trying to figure out who was doing this,” Clayton Andrew Perry explains now. “I have family members that are gay.” (They were maybe also interested in the cash.)

“We’re good people, right, but we just had this stereotypical kind of outlook on us,” he says, adding that he and his brother are both paramedics. He spent two days in county lockup, the only time in jail he says he’s ever done.

A candlelight vigil was held in the front of the school in mid-December, where 250 attended; even the TV news was there. Guest speakers included two representatives of a local LGBT organization called Spectrum and a woman from the office of the local San Francisco state Sen. Carole Migden, herself openly lesbian. The winter sun descended early and candles flickered. The event ended with a junior on a guitar leading the crowd in a tearful rendition of “Let It Be.”

“That place was packed. Absolutely packed,” Candace Curtis recalls.

Jeff Vendsel / Marin Independent Journal

This wasn’t surprising, given the moment: Earlier that year, and 20 minutes away, San Francisco Mayor Gavin Newsom began marrying same-sex couples at City Hall. A month later, Gov. Schwarzenegger and the State Supreme Court stopped them, and those 4,000 couples who were married, some of whom had kids at Tam, found themselves in a legal gray area that wouldn’t be resolved in their favor until the landmark Supreme Court decision that defeated Prop 8 last summer.

Inspired by what Newsom had done, a group of drama students had been developing a Laramie Project–style oral documentary play called Are We Married Yet?: How the Rainbow Reached Marin. “This has taken on special resonance as anti-gay incidents have recently surfaced on the Tam campus itself,” director John Warren stated in the play’s pink playbill.

After a quiet winter break, the crimes erupted again. The GSA had put up fliers that included statistics about the frequency of LGBT teen suicide. One was found on Mary’s car, alongside blocky words in column, instructing “SO DO IT.” “DIE FAG” was written in dry-erase pen on another teacher’s classroom door.

Then one afternoon, Nina Hirten recalls, she and Mary walked out to Mary’s car, which was parked by the football field. After they got in, Mary slammed her fists into the steering wheel and swore loudly. Hirten asked what was happening. “The door,” Mary said, indicating to the passenger door. Hirten got out and saw another slur written there in big black letters. She was confused as to how Mary had seen it, but more confused that she’d missed it. She sat with her friend as she called the police, as they filed a report. “She was like, ‘I don’t want to go home right now,’ because at that point she’d been egged once or twice at her house. I told her, ‘You can stay with me whenever you want’ and she did.” Each time something else happened, Hirten would get a text. “She was practically living at my house that year,” she says. “It came to the point where I felt like I was really babysitting her.”

This was in part because Mary was high all the time — cough medicine. Most of her friends knew about it. Teachers occasionally sent her to the counselor’s office. Mary’s other best friend recalls covering for her a lot: “I didn’t think it was my place to confront her about that, given that I was under the impression that she was fearing for her life most of the time.”

One night in mid-February, the police found Mary on campus drunk and sent her home. At least once, her mother called the sheriff, worried that her daughter had run away, or worse. One comment Mary made about wanting to drive off a cliff worried investigators so much they put a GPS unit on her car and kept a laptop with them at all times so they could keep track of her. Mary didn’t know about this. Neither she nor her mom were aware that the retired couple across the street had allowed a camera to be installed on their property, either.

Fliers blew away or were rained on and then replaced. The edges of the rainbow ribbon on my own book bag frayed. The feeling around campus was one of tension, and slight disbelief: They haven’t figured this out yet? Suspects were few, and no theories stuck. Maybe a parent? some wondered. The crimes showed no sign of stopping; if anything they escalated.

Right before the big spring multicultural assembly, which this year would have a big LGBT component, the school’s main office received a threatening letter. “I remember having the police there in force, all over the place,” recalls Curtis, “for fear that there was going to be some horrible thing that some perpetrator was going to try and pull off.”

And then at the end of spring break, in mid-April, five teachers received threatening voicemails. The voice was deep and sounded mechanized. It said: “…force [sic] to tolerate it when we see you every day, we sit in your classes and we tolerate you because we have to. This is our expression: We don’t want you here and it’s just the beginning. We have supporters and will only get bigger. Take your opportunity to leave now.”

“I had to play it a couple times,” recalls one recipient, who, along with his other targeted colleagues I spoke with, asked to remain anonymous. “I didn’t understand what it was saying. It was a little bit cryptic.” At first he wasn’t sure if it was a threat or a prank. “I don’t think I put two and two together until after, when a number of us were targeted and I’m like, ‘Oh, all of us are gay.’ And that’s when a lot of questions started coming through my mind: ‘How did this person know?’”

Mary was turning 18. She and her friends drove out to Muir Beach. They wanted to not think about the attacks. They drank and built a bonfire and planned to spend the night on the cold, gray sand. But Mary was wasted and, Hirten remembers, things got dark: “She was saying, ‘What’s the point of going on? All this keeps happening to me, why is it happening to me?’ At one point she said she wanted to kill herself and we’d all be better off without her.”

After a sheriff kicked them off the beach, they ended up sleeping in their cars. They drove back in thick silence the next day along the winding highway. Hirten says quietly, “I just really didn’t know what to do at that point.”

Nina Hirten says she never suspected the truth. Most of Mary’s former friends and teachers didn’t. I know I surely didn’t. Like many, I remember where I was when I saw the story. It came out on Sunday, May 8, Mother’s Day. It was above the fold, next to an infographic about Marin’s unsolved murders. It declared: “Tam High Anti-Gay Attacks a Hoax.”

“She did admit to police that she basically did it all for attention,” Superintendent Bob Ferguson stated in the story. The police and the story did not name her. It was picked up by the San Francisco Chronicle and the Los Angeles Times. The internet was smaller then, and social media more or less nonexistent. A couple of right-wing bloggers — including Michelle Malkin — reveled in it, asserting that odd, hyper-bigoted point that the occasional fake hate crime somehow disproves the existence of real bigotry.

That Monday, that week, we stood around in hallways and on lawns just asking one another what just happened and mostly why. People were confused, people were furious. I remember a particularly hotheaded peer kicking at a chain-link fence. In a subsequent IJ story, the Perry twins expressed “outrage” at their prior arrest. They demanded Mary be punished. “It’s still a hate crime,” Clayton Andrew Perry said, “She did it to a teacher.” She was never seen from again; we heard she was expelled, that her athletic scholarship to a state school had been rescinded.

She did write an email to her friends the day the story broke. Few wrote back. One of her best friends was so upset by it, she set up a filter to block Mary’s emails and hasn’t had any contact with her since. “It feels to me like the healthy choice, and I feel comfortable with that choice,” she says to me now.

I’d think of all this when I’d see another one of these stories: a lesbian waitress who faked a hateful note. A transgender high schooler who lied about being beat up. I am not surprised, of course, that bigots still revel in such incidents, but am surprised by how others, even LGBT blogs, react insensitively to them. (Take this Queerty roundup about five different fake hate crimes titled “Pants on Fire.”) Of course this anger, the anger our community felt, makes sense: A fake hate crime is like a mutiny, and in giving ammunition to the enemy it hurts the greater — and very real — movement to end LGBT discrimination and hate. But then I’d remember carpooling to a Weird Al concert with her in seventh grade, and waiting after for autographs, or a birthday party in her driveway where we spun our own cotton candy. The idea that she’d done what she had because she was just evil or something never felt like explanation enough.

“I do feel a responsibility to make amends whenever possible,” she wrote when I first approached her. “I’m happy to talk and answer questions, although I may not have any satisfying answers.” I was apparently the first person from our high school with whom she’d had contact in nearly 10 years.

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“It’s the fucking stupidest thing,” she says. We’re sitting in a crowded family-friendly restaurant in a strip mall in the suburb where she now lives, on a Sunday morning. “I had a whole bunch of homework to do and I hadn’t done it. None of it. Hadn’t read anything, hadn’t done the notes. I don’t remember what the assignment was, but it was something that we had a week or two to do and I hadn’t done any of it. So I broke into the locker room and I graffitied my locker. Then the first or second period of the day, they called me out of the office, they said, ‘You can go home if you want to.’ I was like, Sweet. I went home and did my homework.”

She puffs air between her freckled cheeks and meets my eyes, summarizes: “I started a whole fake hate-crime thing with the police so I didn’t have to do my homework.” She stacks her three empty coffee creamers into one another. It had to have been more than that, I say.

“It was the whole situation,” she admits, and the details of the years that had preceded flow out of her: the divorce, the strain between her and her mom, her sister going away to school. The sense that she couldn’t go to a college herself that would add to that financial burden as her friends made preparations to apply out of state. Big conflicts with certain teachers. And then there was the loneliness of being out and feeling like hardly anyone else was. I ask, why cold medicine? “It doesn’t show up on drug tests. It’s really cheap. They sell it two for one at Walgreens.”

Each time she committed another crime, she says, “It was a little like pressure-release valve.’”

“Imagine someone was like, ‘You have zero responsibility now.’” In her voice, I can still hear a glimmer of how incredible she found this effect. She could go to school if she wanted. She could still play sports. Her mom, friends, teachers, and coaches rallied around her, told her how much they loved her: “All that shit that you just wish somebody would have said without there being an explicit reason to.”

She hadn’t anticipated the community being so supportive. She didn’t want the candles, the fliers, the ribbons. She recalls lying on the floor of a classroom as the vigil was starting, not wanting to go. “I was convincing myself that nobody was really being affected by this. I remember feeling it was very victimless, which I now recognize was obviously not true.”

And then there was the problem of needing to escalate the crimes in order to keep everyone engaged. She recorded the voicemails using a computer program that distorts voices. She used a pay phone behind a gas station by the freeway. I ask about this break of pattern — targeting the teachers. This is the element of what she did that I’ve had the hardest time understanding.

“It was probably about calling them out,” she admits. “None of our teachers were really out. Even ones we knew were gay. You definitely got a sense like they wanted to let you know, very old-school gay code shit where you drop hints about things but you never come out and say it. It’s kind of fucked up to be on the other end of that as a gay person, like, ‘Oh, we can’t talk about this.’” But she insists she didn’t do what she did out of a spirit of activism. Her motives were totally selfish: “If I put us two steps forward, I definitely took us 10 steps backward.”

She says she wasn’t thinking about what she was doing in terms of the long-term consequences. She didn’t have some fake person in her imagination who was committing these crimes; she knew on some level that this scenario was becoming less and less believable. She took precautions not to get caught but didn’t imagine what it’d be like when she was arrested. “That’s the level of the hubris that I was working under.”

They matched the voicemails to the pay phone by the gas station and confirmed her car was there at that same time. They called a meeting up at the county courthouse and insisted she meet them there. Meetings like this had become her life. But there was something in the way they insisted she attend the meeting that she suspected she’d been caught. When she got there, they explained who was present: a counselor from the school, her mom — and her dad.

She confessed to everything. They told her she could go home. Her mom took work off the next day. Her sister flew back from college not long after. But she doesn’t remember them sitting down and talking about all that happened, like a big intervention. “That’s how we function. That’s how I function, anyway. It’s my problem. I don’t talk to people about things.”

Her friends totally cutting her off surprised her, she says, choosing her words carefully, emphasizing that she doesn’t blame them. “I accepted that they were going to be very upset with me, but at the same time I felt like if you were a friend, you could talk to somebody while you were upset with them. The isolation set in really fast. Any kind of plan I did have was out the window.”

She and her mom were fighting a lot. She moved out and in with a roommate. She was high all the time. She bought a gun. She confessed to her roommate she was thinking of killing herself when she was fucked up and was committed, held for 24 hours.

She can’t pinpoint when it was that things started getting better. That summer she went on a road trip with her dad, she recalls fondly, and they drove all around America. She started community college classes. She worked as a dog washer, as a barista, in an office. She paid a restitution to the high school, attended meetings with a parole officer, and did community service, for which she volunteered at school. At one point she realized she looked forward to that each day more than anything else, and that informed her decision to be an educator. When she was 19 and working at a summer camp, she met the woman who’d become her wife.

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Their apartment is nearby, up in the hills a bit. It’s modest and carpeted and tidy. There are framed photos of their wedding day — she’s grinning widely, her bride’s in white. A green lawn and big yellow sunflowers. Both of their families. That ceremony was a few years ago, and last summer they married legally. There’s a goldfish and a schedule of meals they’ll cook and take to work each day on the fridge. Her wife, an elementary school teacher, kneels by the coffee table, preparing a model craft project for Monday morning. We stand on her back patio and listen to the freeway and admire the trees. It’s hot for winter, even in California. Hummingbirds zip up and away.

For the first four or five years, she says, she would think about what she did every single night as she fell asleep. She’d wonder what everyone else was doing, what they thought about what had happened. She’d feel tremendous regret. For the relationships she’d ruined. For the fact that she hadn’t realized her actions would ultimately harm the LGBT cause: “Like, how could you not fucking think about that?” she says, raising her voice. “It was all part of not thinking about the end game, not considering what was going to happen.”

But mostly, she’d wonder why she’d done it: “It’s so stupid and so pointless. Not having a good reason — I have somewhat of a reason but it’s not a good reason — so there’s no way to justify to yourself. You’re going to live with that forever: Wow. I did this really horrible shitty thing to all these people for absolutely zero reason.”

That she doesn’t have a good reason makes sense to a clinical psychologist I later talk with, Dr. Michael Friedman. He points out that one of the reasons people like Breaking Bad is that we get to witness how you don’t just go from being a schlubby science teacher to a sociopathic meth kingpin overnight. “Each little individual decision gets made based off where the person is at that moment in their life and the contingencies that are right before them. We inappropriately assume that there’s a cause and then there’s a solution. And we all want to feel more safe.”

The fact that she was a teenager, the fact that she was using drugs, to him these are all the more reason to believe her when she says she doesn’t know why she did what she did. While growing up gay can be and was, for her, isolating, he says that’s an element of this story, not the story. “What I’m hearing in the story is a series of extremely unfortunate things that all kept piling together to create this perfect storm of a moment.”

I’ve always thought of her story as so exceptional, but now I’m thinking about how many of us nearly do things that we’ll regret for the rest of our lives when we’re 17. Some of us, more of us than we’d like to acknowledge, do. There’s a reason juvenile records are sealed, purged, as hers were. She’s been background checked for basically every job she’s ever had and there’s never been a problem. (The first few times were pretty “white knuckle,” she says.)

We’re leaned against the rail, each sipping from a Longboard lager. (“I have Longboard lager or Longboard lager,” she’d joked before.) I find myself trying to grasp at the string of our friendship, which floats by, thin as a spider’s thread on the hot air. I find myself suddenly telling her about how my last 10 years were, recapping whatever struggles I had too. I point out that late high school, early college, is a difficult time for many of us. She chuckles a deep chuckle.

“No, just me. I’m the only special flower who didn’t know what they wanted to be at 17 years old.” She sighs. “And I handled it so beautifully, didn’t I?”

The school she teaches at is in another town, nestled in oak trees. Her classroom is big, with a lab. Cubes with the planets dangle. She wears a blue button-down over a white T-shirt with gray slacks and a wristwatch.

“I was fine grades-wise, but behavior-wise I was a nightmare,” she recalls before the period starts. “And to just look at that and know what my motivations were and to see how I can apply that to my students. So, like, instead of screaming at them and sending them out, just go over and be like, ‘Oh, that’s hilarious, but you need to stop.’ It’s not like they don’t want to be here. It’s that they’re looking for something more from you.”

Being a teacher makes her think back on the adults who invested so much time and energy in her. The day before, it was in discussing one teacher in particular with whom she’d been close, and whom she’d targeted with a voicemail, that she’d verged on tears. (I don’t believe I’ve ever seen her cry.)

“It’s hard when you have 170 kids and you might see that one or two of them is struggling with something but you’ve got a job to do,” she now says.

The mania of children entering, all backpacks and sneakers and chairs squeaking on linoleum — you can tell they respect her, even the boys in the back, the kinds who wear Giants caps, it seems, so that she can authoritatively motion for them to take them off, which they do.

She paces back and forth beneath a hanging potted plant and an American flag and gives a lecture on the carbon cycle. At one point she says the word “combustion” and references an experiment about density she’d done earlier that year, “when I lit that $20 bill on fire.” (It was doused in alcohol and didn’t actually burn.) They titter.

“That means you should go to jail,” one student calls out and they all laugh.

She makes a big faux-surprised face. “Don’t tell anybody,” she says.












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These 14 Celebrities With Their Stunt Doubles Will Blow Your Mind. Especially Mark Ruffalo’s.. Whoa.
Stunt doubles are a very important part of movie and television production, they can do those crazy stunts that are either too dangerous, too complicated for the actors to do or because the insurance companies simply won’t allow it. But it’s not often you get to see what each stunt double actually looks like (beats […]

Prepare to get emotional over this new short film about opportunity

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Prepare to get emotional over this new short film about opportunity
Over the Holidays were all accustomed to getting a little emotional. As a time for celebrating and reflecting on the past year, the Holidays is special to each and every one of us for different reasons. Of course, having the opportunity to celebrate the Holidays with loved ones is something not everyone has a chance […]

‘Hidden Figures’ Curriculum Brings Film’s Lessons To The Classroom

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‘Hidden Figures’ Curriculum Brings Film’s Lessons To The Classroom
Twentieth Century Fox Home Entertainment announced Monday that its partnering with nonprofit Journeys in Film and the USC Rossier School of Education to offer a curriculum guide with lesson plans based on the film. Hidden Figuresis ideally suited for use in the classroom, but teachers want students to do more with a film than passively […]

A Supercomputer Just Made The Worlds First AI-Created Film Trailer Heres How Well It Did

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A Supercomputer Just Made The Worlds First AI-Created Film Trailer  Heres How Well It Did
More people have been talking about the trailer for the sci-fi/horror film Morgan than the movie itself. Its partly because the commercial and critical response to the film has been less than lukewarm, and partly because the clip was the first to be created entirely by artificial intelligence. At the request of the filmmakers at […]

This Abandoned House In The Middle Of The Woods Is Straight Out Of A Horror Movie…

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This Abandoned House In The Middle Of The Woods Is Straight Out Of A Horror Movie…
The new thing in Hollywood seems to be taking well-known fairytale classics and adding a dark, edgy spin. Well, this creepy abandoned house in Denmark achieves that marriage between storybook-whimsy and horror film-creepy aesthetics without even trying. Redditor bamoamn discovered this long-abandoned cottage in the swamps of Jutland that looks like a place where an […]

Celebrated animator Hayao Miyazaki ends retirement to make a new film

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Celebrated animator Hayao Miyazaki ends retirement to make a new film
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This Time-Lapse Video Of Maggots Is Intriguing And So, So Disgusting

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This Time-Lapse Video Of Maggots Is Intriguing And So, So Disgusting
There’s no shortage of weird videos of weird people doing weird things online. Because I’m a jaded internet user, it takes quite a bit for me to see something and say, “What the hell did I just watch?” When that does happen, you can be sure that there’s some seriously bizarre nonsense going on. Take […]

So There’s An Island You’ve Probably Never Heard Of… And It Looks Like Aliens Should Live There.

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So There’s An Island You’ve Probably Never Heard Of… And It Looks Like Aliens Should Live There.
There are so many strange parts of this world that you won’t see in your daily life (and there is a chance you will never see in person). It’s an odd thing to think about. For example, there’s a small archipelago of four islands located in the Indian Ocean that look so strange, it’s hard […]

4 reasons why the new film on van Gogh looks absolutely stunning.

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4 reasons why the new film on van Gogh looks absolutely stunning.
A new biopic on Vincent van Gogh is telling his storied life like it’s never been told before. “Loving Vincent,” a documentary in the works from Polish painter Dorota Kobiela and British filmmaker Hugh Welchman, is breaking all the rules of 21st century filmmaking by using some seriously old-school methods. The film’s trailer released late […]

Youve Been Trumped Too: its the film Donald Trump doesnt want you to see | Anthony Baxter

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Youve Been Trumped Too: its the film Donald Trump doesnt want you to see | Anthony Baxter
When I found out about Trumps treatment of a Scottish family in his attempt to force them off their land I had to make a film about it. Now he wants to sue Donald Trump is threatening to sue movie theatres, reporters or anyone who repeats the allegations made in my new film Youve Been […]

‘Black-ish’ Actress Marsai Martin To Star In New American Girl Film

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‘Black-ish’ Actress Marsai Martin To Star In New American Girl Film
Adorable “Black-ish” actress Marsai Martin has landed the lead role in Amazon’s upcoming American Girl live-action special, “Melody, 1963: Love Has to Win, an American Girl Story.” Martin, who plays Diane in “Black-ish,” will star as Melody Ellison, a 10-year-old girl who becomes aware of the racial inequality around her, according to Deadline. Set in […]

Watching a scary movie as a kid.

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Watching a scary movie as a kid.
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Explosion At Mount Etna Nearly Kills BBC Film Crew

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Explosion At Mount Etna Nearly Kills BBC Film Crew
Sicilys Mount Etna began erupting a decent amount of lava peppered with the occasional ash column towards the end of February of this year, and plenty have gathered around it to watch the fireworks. A BBC News team happened to get a little bit too close to it today, though, and a sudden explosion almost […]

Peepli Live co-director convicted of raping American scholar

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Peepli Live co-director convicted of raping American scholar
A court here on Saturday convicted Mahmood Farooqui, co-director of Bollywood film , for sexually assaulting an American research scholar last year. Additional Sessions Judge Sanjiv Jain held Faro Read more: http://www.thehindu.com/news/national/peepli-live-codirector-convicted-of-raping-american-scholar/article8921715.ece?utm_source=RSS_Feed&utm_medium=RSS&utm_campaign=RSS_Syndication

Kalpana 2: This one neither scares you nor makes you laugh

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Kalpana 2: This one neither scares you nor makes you laugh
A popular belief in the Kannada film industry today is that if you include a ghost in your film it will be successful. , which is a remake of Raghava Lawrence’s , might have thought of cashing in on Read more: http://www.thehindu.com/features/cinema/cinema-reviews/kalpana-2-this-one-neither-scares-you-nor-makes-you-laugh/article8859690.ece?utm_source=RSS_Feed&utm_medium=RSS&utm_campaign=RSS_Syndication

Artist Turns Parents Home Into Haunted House Straight Out Of A Tim Burton Film

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Artist Turns Parents Home Into Haunted House Straight Out Of A Tim Burton Film
Fortunately for other Halloween enthusiasts, she also shared photos of the process. She used foam-core boards to create eyes and teeth for the house, making them light, inexpensive, and easy to work with! “I decorated my parents house for Halloween…” Almost finished… To complete the subscription process, please click the link in the email we […]

8 inspiring quotes from Malala’s new film prove she’s a total badass.

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8 inspiring quotes from Malala’s new film prove she’s a total badass.
If you didn’t know any better, you might mistake Malala Yousafzai for a normal teenager. She can’t keep the grin off her face when Googling photos of Roger Federer giggling when saying she likes his haircut and she has strong opinions about both pizza and Bella from “Twilight.” She patiently teaches her digitally-challenged dad how […]

Hayao Miyazaki Cancels Retirement For One Final Film

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Hayao Miyazaki Cancels Retirement For One Final Film
Since Miyazaki announced his retirement 3 years ago, he has been working on Kemushi no Boro (Boro the Caterpillar) – a CG short for the Ghibli Museum. Miyazaki has been working on the story for two decades and describes it as “a story of a tiny, hairy caterpillar, so tiny that it may be easily […]

A Short Film That Shows You How Your Brain Breaks When You Do Something You’re Not Supposed To Do

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A Short Film That Shows You How Your Brain Breaks When You Do Something You’re Not Supposed To Do
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This Shocking New Film Will Change Your Outlook On The Planet

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This Shocking New Film Will Change Your Outlook On The Planet
Were no longer creeping towards the Earths sixth mass extinction, nor are we on the cusp of it: were in it. Youve probably not even noticed, but it doesnt take a cataclysmic disaster to trigger one of these events, such as an asteroid impact or supervolcano eruption. Although arguably, there has been a relatively recent […]

Community Post: Which Steve Buscemi Character Are You?

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Community Post: Which Steve Buscemi Character Are You?
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Internet Freaks Out After Trump Fans Film Their Rage At Nordstrom

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Internet Freaks Out After Trump Fans Film Their Rage At Nordstrom
A video that shows a group of women closing their Nordstrom accounts after the store decided to drop the Ivanka Trump brand has gone viral. The next clip shows the women going up an escalator and saying that theyre boycotting the store because Nordstrom caved. Facebook Facebook The video continues with one woman in sunglasses […]

Where Should You Study Abroad?

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Where Should You Study Abroad?
“The world is a book and those who do not travel read only one page.” View this image › Crystal Ro / Buzzfeed / demachi / Thinkstock / Daniel Hurst / Thinkstock demachi / Thinkstock jvoisey / Thinkstock ahau1969 / Thinkstock KHellon / Thinkstock AmandaLewis / Thinkstock HIRO/amanaimagesRF / Thinkstock cmfotoworks / Thinkstock Emil Huston […]

The Godfather director and cast reunite to discuss struggle of making the film

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The Godfather director and cast reunite to discuss struggle of making the film
Francis Ford Coppola, Al Pacino, Diane Keaton, Robert De Niro and others attended nine-hour screening and talk in New York on films 45th anniversary The Godfather is widely regarded as one of the greatest and most influential films in Hollywood history. At an epic night at Radio City Music Hall on Saturday, director Francis Ford […]

Amy Schumer’s bold words on gun control after two women were killed during a screening of her film

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Amy Schumer’s bold words on  gun control after two women were killed during a screening of her film
We were all heartbroken after the mass shooting during a screening of “Trainwreck” in Lafayette, Louisiana, on July 23. Amy Schumer, the film’s writer and star, is speaking out about the tragedy. “I’m not sure why this man chose my movie to end those two lives and injure nine others,” the actress said of Jillian […]

Fourth ‘Star Trek’ film announced, Chris Hemsworth to return

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Fourth ‘Star Trek’ film announced, Chris Hemsworth to return
The team of ‘Star Trek’ is returning for another space voyage, with the producers announcing the fourth movie in the series. In the next part of the epic space adventure, Chris Pine’s Captain Kirk wi Read more: http://www.thehindu.com/features/cinema/fourth-star-trek-film-announced-chris-hemsworth-to-return/article8871275.ece?utm_source=RSS_Feed&utm_medium=RSS&utm_campaign=RSS_Syndication

Bill Paxton’s Weirdest Film: A Music Video Dedicated To Fish Heads

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Bill Paxton’s Weirdest Film: A Music Video Dedicated To Fish Heads
Bill Paxton, who died Saturday at age 61, is best known to most film fans for his work in hit movies like Titanic, Twister and Aliens. But he holds a special place in the hearts of people who love weird music. The song, which you can hear above,has this unforgettably bizarre chorus: Fish heads, fish […]

The Case Of The Missing Wage Thief

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The Case Of The Missing Wage Thief
A restaurant company allegedly owned by the Chinese government was ordered to pay its workers millions in back wages. Then it completely disappeared. Jin Ming Cao thought he was finally going to get his money back. He’d spent months organizing other workers at a Chinese restaurant in Manhattan, and another two years pursuing a lawsuit […]

What He Captured On Film May Be The Most Gorgeous Sunset Of All Time

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What He Captured On Film May Be The Most Gorgeous Sunset Of All Time
As Ralph Waldo Emerson once said, “Every sunset brings the promise of a new dawn.” But as we spend most of our days working and getting from point A to point B, we often overlook nature’s unbelievable beauty. And nothing is as beautiful as the evening sunset filling up our sky with mesmerizing shades of […]

25 Celebrities Who Almost Played Your Favorite Characters

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25 Celebrities Who Almost Played Your Favorite Characters
googletag.cmd.push(function() { googletag.display(‘VN_PG_DTAT_ATF’); }); Even though you might not be able to picture a frozen hellscape in which Harry Potter is not played by Daniel Radcliffe, the fact of that matter is that someone else almost did. In fact, the same is true for plenty of popular movie and TV characters. What would “Pretty Woman” […]

An awkward boy falls for another guy in this short film, and people are loving it.

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An awkward boy falls for another guy in this short film, and people are loving it.
It’s just 25 seconds long, and no one says a word in it. But the trailer for “In a Heartbeat” has the internet talking. Even the two creators behind the project can’t believe the response. Beth David and Esteban Bravo, students at Ringling College of Art and Design in Florida, were “floored” when their Kickstarter […]

Cameras On The ISS Spotted This Bizarre Light Beaming From The Earth

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Cameras On The ISS Spotted This Bizarre Light Beaming From The Earth
The International Space Station provides a live stream from its orbit at all times, and one keen-eyed observer recently found something that may prove the existence of aliens. It came in the form of a single beam of light. The weirdness begins with a shot of this spot far in the distance. YouTuber secureteam10 says […]

This Black Woman Produced A Film That Is Nominated For Six Oscars

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This Black Woman Produced A Film That Is Nominated For Six Oscars
Producer Kimberly Steward was among the several black starswho celebrated earning an Oscar nomination on Tuesday. The industry newcomer has been garnering quite the buzz among film critics since the acclaimed Sundance premiere of the film, which has been nominated for six Academy Awards. This is exciting and surreal, Steward said of her reaction to […]

The Weirdest (And Most Offensive) Causes Celebrities Have Endorsed.

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The Weirdest (And Most Offensive) Causes Celebrities Have Endorsed.
Celebrities are always happy to use their influence and chime in on political matters. Celebrity benevolence exists so the common folk know that the celebrity cause is the “correct” cause. People often hold these famous people in high regard, and blindly believe whatever they say. This is how a famous Playboy model fought a thoroughly […]

Some Genius Turned Bohemian Rhapsody Into a Literal Short Film

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Some Genius Turned Bohemian Rhapsody Into a Literal Short Film
Queen’s “Bohemian Rhapsody” is a classic that basically everyone and their brother knows the words to, even if it’s only because they remember it from Wayne’s World. Now what do you get when you take away the music, add in some gunfire, and literally act out the lyrics?

Pixars New Short Film Piper Is The Most Adorable Thing Ever And You Can Watch It For FREE

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Pixars New Short Film Piper Is The Most Adorable Thing Ever And You Can Watch It For FREE
It’s arguably Disney-Pixar’s best short film yet, and we have good news for all of you who missed it the first time around because it’s now available to watch online for free!

A moving short film explores what its really like to live with ADHD.

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A moving short film explores what its really like to live with ADHD.
Do you know what it’s actually like to have an attention disorder? We’ve all heard the stereotypes. Symptoms of learning disabilities and attention disorders are often dismissed as laziness, too much energy, a result of bad parenting or worse, that it’s all in the head. There are even those who think it’s completely and utterly […]

They Created A Home Theater On A Budget, And It’ll Make You So Jealous

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They Created A Home Theater On A Budget, And It’ll Make You So Jealous
One of the biggest signs of wealth and class is having a home theater. After all, a place to watch movies without interference is something that most people want. Well, these people somehow created one on a budget. They put together a theater room in their basement, and they only spent $100 in the process. […]

These Photos From Horrifying Crimes Of The Past Were Just Dug Up. And They’re Chilling.

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These Photos From Horrifying Crimes Of The Past Were Just Dug Up. And They’re Chilling.
For as long as there have been humans, there has been war, crime and strife. As humans, we are imperfect and sometimes our base nature takes over. It’s just hard to believe our ancestors or grandparents would be capable of such things. What you see below are photos that were created from negatives stored at […]

These 19 Nightmarish Places Will Keep You Awake At Night… They Sent Chills Down My Spine.

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These 19 Nightmarish Places Will Keep You Awake At Night… They Sent Chills Down My Spine.
As you go about your daily life, it’s easy to forget all of the weird and wonderful things that are tucked away around the world. A Redditor cobbled together 19 of the strangest places on earth, reminding us all of the creepy things that could be hidden in our very towns. Dark forests, abandoned cities, strange museums […]

Alan Rickman, giant of British film and theatre, dies at 69

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Alan Rickman, giant of British film and theatre, dies at 69
Much-loved star of stage, TV and films including Harry Potter and Die Hard and owner of one of the most singular voices in acting ­ has died in London Alan Rickman, one of the best-loved and most warmly admired British actors of the past 30 years, has died in London aged 69. His death was […]

Horror Film About Racism Earns Coveted 100 Percent On Rotten Tomatoes

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Horror Film About Racism Earns Coveted 100 Percent On Rotten Tomatoes
The actorJordan Peele is best known for his comedy, or his impression of former President Barack Obama. That may change this weekend, based on early reviews of his inaugural film a fusion of comedy and horror set to debut in the U.S. on Friday. That means that all reviews for the film on the site […]

Couple Lets Their Dog Film Their Wedding And The Result Is Better Than Most Wedding Videos

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Couple Lets Their Dog Film Their Wedding And The Result Is Better Than Most Wedding Videos
They strapped a GoPro camera to their doggy and let her run around freely during the ceremony on a Roan Mountain, Tennessee, where the couple had their first date 10 years ago.

How Society Destroys Your Creativity, In An Award-Winning Pixar-Like Short Film

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How Society Destroys Your Creativity, In An Award-Winning Pixar-Like Short Film
Alike, a Pixar-like affair by Madrid-based animators Daniel Martínez Lara and Rafa Cano Méndez, is a 7-minute lesson on what happens to your life when creativity is drowned out by the daily grind. It’s also about parenthood, and the importance of letting kids to forge their own journeys. The critically-acclaimed short was made entirely with […]

Namadhu review by Baradwaj Rangan

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Namadhu review by Baradwaj Rangan
Now, this is not nice. When you advertise a film as a trilingual (Telugu, Malayalam, Tamil), the viewer thinks it has been shot in all three languages. Okay, maybe production constraints may result Read more: http://www.thehindu.com/features/cinema/cinema-reviews/namadhu-review-by-baradwaj-rangan/article8949221.ece?utm_source=RSS_Feed&utm_medium=RSS&utm_campaign=RSS_Syndication

Farhan Akhtar tweets Rock On!! 2 poster

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Farhan Akhtar tweets Rock On!! 2 poster
Actor Farhan Akhtar uploaded the first look poster of his film Rock On!! 2 and tweeted, ‘Woohooo! Here we go… #RockOn2 poster. #ReliveTheMagik’. Woohooo! Here we go… #RockOn2 poster. #ReliveTh Read more: http://www.thehindu.com/features/cinema/farhan-akhtar-tweets-rock-on-2-poster/article9064954.ece?utm_source=RSS_Feed&utm_medium=RSS&utm_campaign=RSS_Syndication

This Chemical Reaction Is Never-Ending…And It’s Oddly Gross AND Terrifying

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This Chemical Reaction Is Never-Ending…And It’s Oddly Gross AND Terrifying
When people say that the truth is stranger than fiction, I think that also applies to science. Even though science is a very objective thing, it can still occasionally create something that looks like it came straight out of a horror movie. Take for example an old trick known as the Pharaoh’s Serpent. Pharaoh’s Serpent […]

It’s All One Giant Movie…

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It’s All One Giant Movie…
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When You Were Cast In This Movie…

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When You Were Cast In This Movie…
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‘Ka Bodyscapes’ refused certification

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‘Ka Bodyscapes’ refused certification
Taking umbrage at what it decided are “vulgar and offensive scenes,” the Central Board of Film Certification has refused to certify the public screening of Malayalam film In a rejection letter sent to Read more: http://www.thehindu.com/news/national/kerala/ka-bodyscapes-refused-certification/article8903035.ece?utm_source=RSS_Feed&utm_medium=RSS&utm_campaign=RSS_Syndication

Here’s how your favourite film trailers are actually put together

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Here’s how your favourite film trailers are actually put together
In terms of box office takings, a trailer can make or break a movie. On the one hand, it could go viral. It could be like the IT teaser trailer. That one’s had almost 31 million YouTube views at the time of writing, and it even set a record for the most online views in […]

Meet Channe Gowda, Thithi’s ‘Gaddappa’

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Meet Channe Gowda, Thithi’s ‘Gaddappa’
In the award-winning movie ‘Gaddappa’, owns land worth lakhs of rupees and his reluctance to transfer its ownership to his son is the storyline for the film. But in real life, 73-year-old Channe Read more: http://www.thehindu.com/news/cities/bangalore/for-gaddappa-it-is-all-so-surreal/article8927250.ece?utm_source=RSS_Feed&utm_medium=RSS&utm_campaign=RSS_Syndication

This Incredible Photo Shows A Baby Born Inside His Amniotic Sac

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This Incredible Photo Shows A Baby Born Inside His Amniotic Sac
“It really felt like a moment of awe,” said the surgeon. Warning: Some readers may find the images in this post graphic. 1. Silas Johnson was born three months premature via cesarean section at Cedars-Sinai Hospital in Los Angeles 10 weeks ago. View this image › CBS LA 2. But when he was born, he […]

What Happened As A Man Was Filming A Bee Caught In A Spider Web Is AWESOME. Check This Out.

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What Happened As A Man Was Filming A Bee Caught In A Spider Web Is AWESOME. Check This Out.
The insect world can be a pretty amazing place, between all the bees stinging, the spiders webbing, and the ants… doing whatever ants do. But what this guy caught on video is pretty unbelievable. He was filming a bee trapped in a spider’s web when all of a sudden… Whoa. Share this video (and that […]

This Young Boy Made A Video About His Little Brother To Honor His Short Life

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This Young Boy Made A Video About His Little Brother To Honor His Short Life
For 12-year-old Luka Wolfgram, some of his fondest memories of his younger brother, Kosta, involved making short, funny videos. However, this budding film director’s latest piece takes a much more serious tone. “Our Superheroes” serves as a heartbreaking call to action against childhood cancer, as well as a touching tribute to Luka’s younger brother. Kosta […]

What Happened To These 11 Celebrities Is Mind-Blowing. I Didn’t Even Recognize Them.

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What Happened To These 11 Celebrities Is Mind-Blowing. I Didn’t Even Recognize Them.
In 1941, Orson Welles changed the face of the film industry — literally — by masterfully aging his titular character drastically in Citizen Kane. But at the same time, over in a television studio, makeup artist Dick Smith was taking long strides of his own and pioneering new techniques that would ultimately revolutionize the industry. While mourning Smith’s recent […]

Rene Zellweger talks upcoming inspirational film ‘Same Kind of Different’

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Rene Zellweger talks upcoming inspirational film ‘Same Kind of Different’
Renée Zellweger opened up about her role in the upcoming inspirational drama Same Kind of Different as Me. The actress plays the role of Debbie, a woman who has given her husband Ron a second chance. Greg Kinnear plays Ron, who befriends a homeless man while doing volunteer work and learns a lot along the […]

Whose Streets? Powerful Ferguson film focuses on flashpoint moment

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Whose Streets? Powerful Ferguson film focuses on flashpoint moment
Directors Sabaah Folayan and Damon Davis spent more than a year in Ferguson after the death of Michael Brown, bearing witness to the protests that followed Three years ago this month, Michael Brown, an unarmed black man, gave the film five stars, praising an outstanding and incendiary documentary that does a tremendous end run around […]

Whose Streets? review: searing film gives a voice to the people of Ferguson

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Whose Streets? review: searing film gives a voice to the people of Ferguson
Sabaah Folayan and Damon Daviss outstanding documentary, which has premiered at Sundance, gets to the heart of the St Louis suburb rocked by the police shooting of Michael Brown The common protest chant Whose streets? Our streets! isnt heard in Whose Streets? until nearly the end, but perhaps the more relevant question is: Whose cameras? […]

Budhia Singh: Born To Run review: Breaking stereotypes

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Budhia Singh: Born To Run review: Breaking stereotypes
The timing couldn’t have been better. It is entirely fitting that on the eve of the Rio Olympics a sports film — — on an Indian child marathoner, should hit the screens. What’s more significant, howe Read more: http://www.thehindu.com/features/cinema/budhia-singh-born-to-run-review-breaking-stereotypes/article8947556.ece?utm_source=RSS_Feed&utm_medium=RSS&utm_campaign=RSS_Syndication

These 5 Uber-Famous Guys Nearly Died Before They Changed The World.

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These 5 Uber-Famous Guys Nearly Died Before They Changed The World.
Have you ever wondered what the world would be like without some of its most influential people? That reality was probably a lot closer to actually happening than you think. Here are five of recent history’s most influential people who nearly died before their time. 1.) Gene Roddenberry. Wikipedia The creator of Star Trek, and the […]

Controversial film about last tsar approved for release in Russia

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Controversial film about last tsar approved for release in Russia
Alexei Uchitels Matilda, which depicts affair between Nicholas II and ballet dancer, has faced calls for ban from religious and conservative critics The Russian culture ministry has cleared a film depicting a love affair between Russias last tsar and a ballerina for nationwide release, despite protests from conservative critics who have demanded it be banned. […]

When This Tribe Saw A White Person For The First Time In The ’70s, Researchers Recorded It

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When This Tribe Saw A White Person For The First Time In The ’70s, Researchers Recorded It
It’s hard to imagine being completely cut off from all of society. Most of us have been raised in a global community connected by technology. Growing up in a faraway place, isolated from the rest of the world (and grocery stores), is unfathomable. That’s why it’s so fascinating to see this video. Researchers were studying […]

89 Incredibly Wonderful Movies You Need To Watch With Your Kids

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89 Incredibly Wonderful Movies You Need To Watch With Your Kids
Get some snacks and settle in for family movie night. View this image › BuzzFeed 1. Apollo 13 (1995) View this image › Imagine Entertainment Lift off. Rated: PG See where you can stream it here. 2. Now and Then (1995) View this image › New Line Cinema An A+ mother/daughter girl’s night option. Rated: […]

We Need A New Idea For A Blockbuster Movie!

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We Need A New Idea For A Blockbuster Movie!
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Robert Pattinson is on a quest for a hot dog in the hilariously dramatic short film ‘Fear & Shame’

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Robert Pattinson is on a quest for a hot dog in the hilariously dramatic short film ‘Fear & Shame’
Robert Pattinson is on a mission. A mission so crucial and dangerous that he risks his identity and his life for it. He NEEDS a NYC hot dog and he needs it NOW. SEE ALSO: Robert Pattinson was totally joking about dog sex in his new movie In a hilariously dramatic short film made to […]

Jennifer Lawrence seriously had a ‘Kardashian tent’ on the set of her latest film

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Jennifer Lawrence seriously had a ‘Kardashian tent’ on the set of her latest film
Image: ANnie leibovitz/Vogue After filming particularly harrowing scenes from the upcoming psychological thriller Mother!, Jennifer Lawrence would take a break to retreat to her off-set “happy place:” A tent plastered with photos of the Kardashians. As Lawrence revealed in her Vogue September issue cover profile, the film crew built a Kardashian-themed escape for the actress […]

This Guy Stepped On A Bug And Revealed Something Totally Gross

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This Guy Stepped On A Bug And Revealed Something Totally Gross
Warning: This is the nastiest thing you’ll see today. 1. An unidentified guy had quite the disturbing experience after he stepped on a cockroach-like bug. Video available at: http://youtube.com/watch?v=Vg53kqVQQI4. Ivan Bregorovic / Via youtube.com 2. After stepping on it, something that resembled a worm crawled out of the insect. And the long, twisty creature just […]

If You Thought ‘The Exorcist’ Was Scary, Wait Until You Hear The Film’s Original Score

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If You Thought ‘The Exorcist’ Was Scary, Wait Until You Hear The Film’s Original Score
Perhaps one of the greatest scary movies of all time, The Exorcist was a horror show before the film even made it to theaters. Several big Hollywood producers of the time turned it down (including Kubrick), the crew became sick with mysterious illnesses, and the toddler of one of the main actors was hit by […]

18 Things That Happen At Every Burns Night

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18 Things That Happen At Every Burns Night
It’s not all just haggis and dancing you know. 1. If you’re hosting, you buy all the Scottish food you can find. View this image › fox.co.uk / Via tumblr.com But no-one’s going to eat that much shortbread, so it sits in your cupboard for months afterwards. 2. You think you might still be able […]

Are You An Unfriendly Black Hottie?

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Are You An Unfriendly Black Hottie?
Can we sit with you or nah? View this image › Paramount Pictures Harpo / Weinstein Company Thinkstock CBS Television Columbia Pictures Universal Pictures Paramount Pictures Paramount Pictures Christopher Polk / Getty Images A&M Def Jam “Party Up (In Here),” DMX Universal Music Group “Family Affair,” Mary J. Blige A&M “Rhythm Nation,” Janet Jackson 20th […]

From Hacks To Decor, Here Are 20 Awesome Things You Can Do With PVC Pipes

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From Hacks To Decor, Here Are 20 Awesome Things You Can Do With PVC Pipes
googletag.cmd.push(function() { googletag.display(‘VN_PG_DTBT_ATF’); }); I remember rummaging around in the garage as a kid while my dad was working on one project or another and wondering why he had so many PVC pipes sitting around. Although I obviously didn’t know the name at the time, you best believe I shoved my arms through them and […]

What do people in Dunkirk make of the film Dunkirk? – BBC News

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What do people in Dunkirk make of the film Dunkirk? – BBC News
Image caption In the first week of its release, 15,000 people saw the film in Dunkirk Operation Dynamo was a coordinated effort by naval ships, pleasure steamers from British seaside resorts – and small motor yachts, most of which had been commandeered by the Royal Navy for the evacuation. These “little ships”, as they came […]

‘The Lion King’ Live Action Film Has Cast 2 More Characters And They’re Perfect

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‘The Lion King’ Live Action Film Has Cast 2 More Characters And They’re Perfect
I’m just gonna jump right out and say it, our world is decaying right before our eyes. It’s an absolute dumpster fire out there, y’all. That’s OK, though, because a live-action version of is making its way to theaters and there is literally nothing as exciting as that. I mean, really, what a time to […]

Pink an act and react experience for Andrea

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Pink an act and react experience for Andrea
Andrea Tariang, who plays herself in the movie, is a remarkable singer and musician dabbling in contemporary RnB and soul music. She plays with a band called Lavender Groove and often teams up with we Read more: http://www.thehindu.com/features/metroplus/pink-an-act-and-react-experience-for-andrea/article9118895.ece?utm_source=RSS_Feed&utm_medium=RSS&utm_campaign=RSS_Syndication

Pssst… Wanna See The Movie Again?

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Pssst… Wanna See The Movie Again?
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His Wife Finally Gave In And Let Him Build This. The Basement Will Never Be The Same Again.

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His Wife Finally Gave In And Let Him Build This. The Basement Will Never Be The Same Again.
“My wife won’t let me do it” is a notorious line, sometimes based on truth, other times just an excuse. In the case of user skerley1979, it was unfortunately true. Then, finally, his wife gave in and turned him loose in the basement to build exactly what he wanted. The result? Pretty epic. Check this […]

These Words Of Wisdom Are Brought To You By The Greatest Comedic Minds.

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These Words Of Wisdom Are Brought To You By The Greatest Comedic Minds.
When people think of comedy, they usually think of going to a show and having mindless fun. Though if you really pay attention, you can find little hidden gems of wisdom in a comedian’s act. Comedians often say profound and inspiring things that you didn’t notice because you were laughing too hard. That’s the great […]

I Want A Movie Where Bad Guys Win…

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I Want A Movie Where Bad Guys Win…
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A children’s film in Assamese dealing with violence is going to film festivals across the world

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A children’s film in Assamese dealing with violence is going to film festivals across the world
One thing led to another in Nitesh Batra’s life. Illness led to yoga, yoga led to films and films are now taking him to his life’s goal. But what that goal is, the young yoga practitioner and upcomin Read more: http://www.thehindu.com/features/metroplus/coming-soon-is-a-webseries-on-godmen-in-india-and-a-film-on-children-facing-violence/article8952979.ece?utm_source=RSS_Feed&utm_medium=RSS&utm_campaign=RSS_Syndication

You can soon make your own fan film on the ‘Star Trek’ set

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You can soon make your own fan film on the ‘Star Trek’ set
Contrary to the very public conflict between CBS, Paramount, and a group of Star Trek fan filmmakers, CBS has endorsed an “academy” for making Star Trek fan films. James Cawley produced the popular fan-made seriesStar Trek: Phase II, which built an accurate recreation of the show’s original 1960s set. He now uses that set for […]

Here Are 8 Awesome Documentaries That Actually Won’t Depress You.

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Here Are 8 Awesome Documentaries That Actually Won’t Depress You.
As a huge fan of documentaries, I have found a recurring theme amongst all of the films I’ve watched. That theme is that they are all horrendously depressing. Most documentaries aim to tackle serious issues and with that comes a lot of weight. Sometimes, I’d like to leave a documentary feeling good. I want to […]

Trying To Get The Best Movie Ever Made On Netflix

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Trying To Get The Best Movie Ever Made On Netflix
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12 Technologies Which Could Save The World

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12 Technologies Which Could Save The World
It’s easy to get downhearted about climate change. But amazing things are happening that could slow it down. 1. Solar glass View this image › Marcelo Del Pozo / Reuters We’re familiar with solar panels, and solar is probably the most promising renewable energy source. But we are on the verge of a major change […]

This Surreal Short Film Will Make Your Normal Day Seem A Little Bit Weirder

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This Surreal Short Film Will Make Your Normal Day Seem A Little Bit Weirder
Technology is pretty simple. You press a button or flip a switch, and something happens — you call your friend, you turn on a light, or you start your computer. It’s all very direct. Right? Not in this wonderfully bizarre (and slightly unsettling) short film by Terri Timely and Park Pictures. It shows a world […]

She Was Sleeping Quietly In The Back Seat…And Then The Music Came On!

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She Was Sleeping Quietly In The Back Seat…And Then The Music Came On!
There’s nothing that this adorable trio of sisters enjoys more than dancing in the car. Every time their favorite song plays over the speakers, they simply drop everything and dance the day away…even if they’re asleep. But what on Earth could provoke such a response? It’s not what you’d expect — not Sesame Street, or […]

Robert Pattinson refused to film sex act with dog for ‘Good Time’

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Robert Pattinson refused to film sex act with dog for ‘Good Time’
When it came to filming Good Time, there was one thing Robert Pattinson wasnt willing to do for the sake of a paycheck. The 31-year-old British actor, who appeared on “Jimmy Kimmel Live” Thursday to promote his new film, revealed he was asked to shoot a shocking scene involving his canine co-star. Oh God, I […]

The Film Industry Is Out Of Control

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The Film Industry Is Out Of Control

Adele hosted a film screening for children who survived the Grenfell Tower fire

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Adele hosted a film screening for children who survived the Grenfell Tower fire
Image: Getty Images Adele has arguably one of the greatest voices in the world, but she’s proving she also has just as great of a heart. On Thursday night, the singer reportedly hosted a screening of Despicable Me 3 for the children who survived the horrible June fire that destroyed much of 24-story Grenfell Tower […]

Maggie Smith Continued To Film The Final Harry Pot

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Maggie Smith Continued To Film The Final Harry Pot
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Srirastu Subhamastu: The ‘family’ hangover

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Srirastu Subhamastu: The ‘family’ hangover
For a film that comes up with several definitions of love, the complications leading to marriage and the financial side of the story, it’s the romantic track that is a huge downer. From Siri’s (Allu S Read more: http://www.thehindu.com/features/cinema/cinema-reviews/srirastu-subhamastu-is-let-down-by-lifeless-characterisations-and-a-stale-story/article8948622.ece?utm_source=RSS_Feed&utm_medium=RSS&utm_campaign=RSS_Syndication

Film Humor

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Film Humor
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Follywood: how Valerian earns its place among film’s strangest big budget flops

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Follywood: how Valerian earns its place among film’s strangest big budget flops
Luc Bessons gonzo $177m space opera is failing to attract audiences, making it the latest in a long line of ambitious gambles that havent paid off As a hack auteur, prolific writer, director and producer, Luc Besson is a seeming contradiction. Hes spent his career churning out grubby, insanely commercial genre movies, such as his […]

Helicopter sex film police crew cleared of misconduct – BBC News

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Helicopter sex film police crew cleared of misconduct – BBC News
During the trial, the court heard a couple sitting naked by a caravan were filmed in July 2008, while the aircraft also filmed a garden where a woman was sunbathing naked with her daughters in 2007. The footage also showed a couple having sex on their patio in July 2008 and at one point, the […]

Should we be surprised by the most profitable film of 2017 thus far?

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Should we be surprised by the most profitable film of 2017 thus far?
Flying below the high-profile summer superhero flicks and the latest blockbusters brought to you by Disney, one unexpected film is hanging on to the noteworthy title of “most profitable film of 2017” (thus far): Jordan Peele’s “Get Out.” The writer and director of “Get Out,” Jordan Peele. Photo by Valerie Macon/AFP/Getty Images. “Get Out” wasn’t […]

19 Ridiculous Jokes That Will Definitely Put A Smile On Your Face

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19 Ridiculous Jokes That Will Definitely Put A Smile On Your Face
If you’re having a bad day, here’s a list that’ll pull you right out of that funk (especially if you’re at work and there’s no end in sight). These jokes might be kind of stupid, but a little stupidity is sometimes exactly what you need. 1. A woman noticed her husband standing on the bathroom […]

Amazon’s Jeff Bezos gets cameo in new ‘Star Trek’ film

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Amazon’s Jeff Bezos gets cameo in new ‘Star Trek’ film
Amazon founder Jeff Bezos got to live out every Trekkie’s fantasy by playing an alien in the new “Star Trek” movie. Bezos is listed in the credits for “Star Trek Beyond,” the third instalment of the r Read more: http://www.thehindu.com/features/cinema/amazons-jeff-bezos-gets-cameo-in-new-star-trek-film/article8860147.ece?utm_source=RSS_Feed&utm_medium=RSS&utm_campaign=RSS_Syndication

Hywel Bennett, star of television and film, dies aged 73 – BBC News

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Hywel Bennett, star of television and film, dies aged 73 – BBC News
Image caption He also played Kevin in Last of the Summer Wine He joined EastEnders in 2003 as Jack Dalton, a gangland boss who ended up being killed in an act of revenge. He also featured in episodes of Last of the Summer Wine and in the Dennis Potter mini-series Karaoke and Cold Lazarus. Bennett […]
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