Why Would A Gay Teenager Commit Hate Crimes Against Herself?

Why Would A Gay Teenager Commit Hate Crimes Against Herself?

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Why Would A Gay Teenager Commit Hate Crimes Against Herself?
Ten years ago, a liberal San Francisco suburb was traumatized by a rash of hate crimes against a 17-year-old lesbian. But when it was revealed that the victim herself had staged the attacks, the entire community turned on her and she never spoke about the incidents publicly. Until now. View this image › Illustration by […]

Ten years ago, a liberal San Francisco suburb was traumatized by a rash of hate crimes against a 17-year-old lesbian. But when it was revealed that the victim herself had staged the attacks, the entire community turned on her and she never spoke about the incidents publicly. Until now.

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Mrs. K can’t remember what it was specifically that made her suspicious. Maybe how the eggs were splattered on the Jeep, or maybe her daughter’s disposition. “I was starting to think, There’s something wrong here,” she says once she finally allows me to turn on a tape recorder. She doesn’t want me to do this story and two nights ago tried to talk her daughter out of cooperating. Her daughter is a teacher now, and the reality is that having all this, all the hateful words — the fabricated ones and the real ones that followed — dredged back up could harm them both. I assure her I won’t be using either of their names.

It’s been 15 years, probably, since I’ve seen Mrs. K, and she looks the same, but slimmer. Her hair is still long and golden. We sit in her living room, almost knee to knee. A vase of fresh-cut daffodils stands on the coffee table. If I’m going to tear open these old wounds, she wants me to at least have the right information, so an hour into my visit, she stands up, walks to a cabinet behind me, and takes out two white binders. Inside these are just about every email she ever sent to the school and the police and others; a calendar she’d made documenting every act of vandalism, death threat, and venomous anti-gay slur; newspaper clippings; the fliers. And then the court petition, probation documents. She insists she hasn’t opened the binders since she made them. “I have every piece of correspondence from my divorce,” she explains. “I have my tax records for the last 10 years. This is how I roll.”

Soon after the Jeep was egged, she did confront her daughter — we can call her Mary — at the Cheesecake Factory, but was convinced to back off. Those were hard years. She’d gone back to work and separated from her husband as her older daughter had gone off to college back East. There were tuition bills, bitter fights, a restraining order, an ever-waning trickle of alimony. She was working six days a week at some points. She remembers one night even taking work she had to do out to the car, watching the house through the night, trying to catch whoever was attacking Mary. And Mary, who’d always been independent, was drifting from her. “I had absolutely no control over her whatsoever,” she says.

“I remember the people that were sympathetic — like this note,” she says, holding up a greeting card from PTA representatives, still in its envelope, opening it with care. “‘Dear Tam Student and Family, we’re writing to offer friendship, support,’” her voice breaks, “‘and solidarity with your family during this tremendously difficult time.’ I’m telling you this meant so much to me. They’ll never know.” She shakes her head and wipes tears from her cheeks.

“So many people had expressed sympathy and now those same people were angry, too, that she had fooled them and did I know. I got that question a lot: Did I know?” Though they’d already planned to move out of Mill Valley before the truth came out, the timing was certainly serendipitous. “I literally could not go to the grocery store,” she says.

She tells me emphatically about how Mary met all the conditions of her probation, how she immediately enrolled in community college, and from there, state school; from there, her teaching program. How good her grades were. Their relationship has healed.

“I do think she feels she needs to be an upstanding citizen now, that she needs to be the person that she was always capable of being. She is going to be that role model, that mentor, that leader of young people who are struggling, because she’s been there.”

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Tamalpais High School is over 100 years old, which is really old for California. Its white stucco buildings are arranged on a steep green hill, and a clock tower stands at its center, fringed by sycamores, overlooking the intersection of Miller Avenue and Camino Alto in Mill Valley. It serves about 1,100 students from the southernmost chunk of Marin County, which borders San Francisco via the Golden Gate Bridge. The county and Mill Valley specifically are white and affluent and very liberal: Its median home price is more than $1 million and fewer than 1 in 8 are registered Republicans. Its redwood-shaded canyons are home to many helicopter parents and Priuses and some celebrities — film producers, actors, rockers of ‘60s and ‘70s repute. The weather is almost without exception pleasant. Days often begin shrouded in fog, but by midday it usually burns off, revealing the mountain, for which the school is named, rising 2,500 feet above, green skirts laid out around it. Locals mostly call the mountain, and the school, Tam.

It was characteristically pleasant the Monday morning of Nov. 1, 2004, when Vice Principal Candace Curtis was alerted on her walkie-talkie that she needed to go down to Ruby Scott Gym, to the girls’ locker room. Curtis, a petite woman with a mess of brown hair, had been working in the schools for over two decades, first as a teacher, and for the last dozen or so as an administrator. In the cement-floored, low-lit locker room, a custodian pointed out what he’d found. It had been done with a ballpoint pen, evidently. The three letters were blocky and strange but what they said was clear: “FAG.”

Ms. Curtis determined that the locker belonged to Mary, who was a senior and active on several sports teams. Ms. Curtis didn’t know whether she was in fact a lesbian, though, like many, wouldn’t have been surprised if she were. She was heavyset. Her light brown hair was buzzed into a crew cut and she dressed in more masculine clothes — collared shirts, plain T-shirts, baggy jeans. When Ms. Curtis called Mary to the office and explained what had happened, her reaction was hard to parse, but she accepted an offer to go home early. She asked only that Ms. Curtis not tell her mother why. The locker was repainted.

A few days later, her mother did find out, and that Sunday wrote Ms. Curtis a pointed email. Her daughter, she explained, had been under a lot of stress as of late, so much so that just two weeks before she’d asked the school counselor for a psychiatrist referral. She could not believe that Ms. Curtis wouldn’t have alerted her of this obviously troubling incident. Ms. Curtis hardly had time to reply before the second graffiti was discovered, on Monday. This time it was on the door of the girl’s white Jeep. Again those same odd, blocky letters, only larger: “DIE FAGGOT.”

A week later, on Nov. 14, a note was found on her windshield, one that’d been typed up large enough to fill the piece of paper. “YOU CAN RUN BUT YOU CAN’T HIDE,” it read, “WE KNOW WHERE YOU LIVE. WHEN WE’RE DONE WITH YOU YOU WILL BURN IN HELL.” The next day, the gym locker again, “RUN FAG RUN,” as well as urine. This, Curtis and others presumed, was probably the work of a man, and yet how did a man not only go into the girls’ locker room without being noticed, she wondered, but know which was the correct locker? The administration, her counselors, and now the police, asked Mary again and again who might be behind these attacks, whether she could recall anyone bullying or stalking her. She said she had no idea. She said she couldn’t recall being victimized on account of her sexuality before.

Soon Mary confided in her small group of friends about what was happening. They were horrified. One of her best friends, Nina Hirten, recalls: “I identify as bisexual and I know plenty of other kids when I was there identified themselves as not straight. Maybe it’s going to be me [next]. Who’s going to write on my car?” But then it became clear whomever it was was targeting Mary: “That’s fucking lame,” Hirten recalls thinking. “In some ways she’s an easy target because she’s obvious and outspoken and well-known and makes herself known.”

Rumors spread. Nobody official gave a name, but nobody needed to. We heard a girl, a senior, an athlete, was the victim of anti-gay attacks, and we guessed rightly who was meant. Mary and I had been friends in middle school, but by senior year, we had grown apart. I wouldn’t have felt comfortable approaching her and saying I was sorry about what was happening. This is partly because I had no real confirmation she was the victim, but also because whatever was happening to her was embarrassing and strange. Years later, I wondered if this was cowardly.

On Nov. 19, a note was found under her doormat at home: “THEY MAKE IT HARDER BUT NOT IMPOSSIBLE AND WE ONLY FIGHT HARDER THIS IS YOUR LAST WARNING WE’RE AROUND EVERY CORNER AND IT’S TIME.” Two days later, in the evening, Mary went out to her car. She noticed an egg had been smashed on the back of it, and saw another on the ground nearby. It was then, she’d later tell authorities, that a third struck her in the temple. She looked up, she told them, shocked, confused, and heard laughing and unintelligible yelling. When sheriffs arrived on scene, emotions were running high. They had to separate Mary and her mother so they could calm them down and get statements. When they investigated the scene, authorities also discovered “FAGMOBILE” scrawled in dirt on the car.

“She never saw who it was,” Mill Valley Police Department Captain Jim Wickham told the Marin Independent Journal that week in the first news story about the incidents. “It may be students; that’s one thing we’re looking at.” Multiple former classmates who are gay but weren’t yet out now cite the incident with the eggs as one that scared them the most — the idea that she’d been followed home.

In late November, they found “FAG CLASS” on the doors of one of her classrooms. In early December, it was “DIE FAG” spray-painted red in two-and-a-half-foot-tall letters in the school’s central Keyser Hall, a location that investigators noted the victim had to pass to get to her first class. “DIE FAGGOT” was found scrawled on the girl’s bathroom door. “FAG CLASS” on another classroom. Around this time the sheriff and police department devoted further resources to the investigation; the FBI was contacted. Still, as the IJ reported, “No suspects have been identified.”

“The mother was calling me constantly,” Ms. Curtis says. “‘How are you keeping my daughter safe?’” She didn’t have a good answer. No matter what she did, she would get another call early in the morning across the walkie-talkie, a custodian saying she better get down and take a look at something. “My stomach would just get in knots. I was on edge every day for all those months, never knowing when something else was going to happen.”

When she’d worked at another high school in the county a few years prior, Curtis remembered the IJ “blasting” the school because of some what she terms “racial incidences” that had occurred. On an impulse, with no permission, and certainly no budget, she and her secretary designed and ordered a big banner and had it hung from the clock tower. “I had no idea when I got it how expensive it was going to be,” she says now, chuckling. It read: “AccepTance, compAssion, eMpathy.”

Curtis made a point of attending the Gay–Straight Alliance meetings, which were now occurring weekly; Mary was co-president. A letter was sent to the students and their families by Principal Chris Holleran, detailing the crimes and their efforts to curtail them, including the “establishment of a $1,000 reward for information, support services for the targeted student, and promotion of our anonymous tip line.” Fliers littered campus. “Got information?” they asked, adding, “It’s your community.” Another of the victim’s friends began a campaign passing out rainbow ribbons.

Finally, one night, police seemed to catch a lead: They caught three students on campus dressed in camouflage. This included the 18-year-old Perry twins, who were somewhat infamous around campus and town, always, it seemed, protesting their innocence to a hall monitor or jumping off something tall. Police drew firearms and got them on the ground. Their 17-year-old companion was released, but the Perrys were photographed and fingerprinted and charged with trespassing while detectives tried to get them to confess to the crimes. But they insisted they’d been trying to solve the crimes: “We were trying to figure out who was doing this,” Clayton Andrew Perry explains now. “I have family members that are gay.” (They were maybe also interested in the cash.)

“We’re good people, right, but we just had this stereotypical kind of outlook on us,” he says, adding that he and his brother are both paramedics. He spent two days in county lockup, the only time in jail he says he’s ever done.

A candlelight vigil was held in the front of the school in mid-December, where 250 attended; even the TV news was there. Guest speakers included two representatives of a local LGBT organization called Spectrum and a woman from the office of the local San Francisco state Sen. Carole Migden, herself openly lesbian. The winter sun descended early and candles flickered. The event ended with a junior on a guitar leading the crowd in a tearful rendition of “Let It Be.”

“That place was packed. Absolutely packed,” Candace Curtis recalls.

Jeff Vendsel / Marin Independent Journal

This wasn’t surprising, given the moment: Earlier that year, and 20 minutes away, San Francisco Mayor Gavin Newsom began marrying same-sex couples at City Hall. A month later, Gov. Schwarzenegger and the State Supreme Court stopped them, and those 4,000 couples who were married, some of whom had kids at Tam, found themselves in a legal gray area that wouldn’t be resolved in their favor until the landmark Supreme Court decision that defeated Prop 8 last summer.

Inspired by what Newsom had done, a group of drama students had been developing a Laramie Project–style oral documentary play called Are We Married Yet?: How the Rainbow Reached Marin. “This has taken on special resonance as anti-gay incidents have recently surfaced on the Tam campus itself,” director John Warren stated in the play’s pink playbill.

After a quiet winter break, the crimes erupted again. The GSA had put up fliers that included statistics about the frequency of LGBT teen suicide. One was found on Mary’s car, alongside blocky words in column, instructing “SO DO IT.” “DIE FAG” was written in dry-erase pen on another teacher’s classroom door.

Then one afternoon, Nina Hirten recalls, she and Mary walked out to Mary’s car, which was parked by the football field. After they got in, Mary slammed her fists into the steering wheel and swore loudly. Hirten asked what was happening. “The door,” Mary said, indicating to the passenger door. Hirten got out and saw another slur written there in big black letters. She was confused as to how Mary had seen it, but more confused that she’d missed it. She sat with her friend as she called the police, as they filed a report. “She was like, ‘I don’t want to go home right now,’ because at that point she’d been egged once or twice at her house. I told her, ‘You can stay with me whenever you want’ and she did.” Each time something else happened, Hirten would get a text. “She was practically living at my house that year,” she says. “It came to the point where I felt like I was really babysitting her.”

This was in part because Mary was high all the time — cough medicine. Most of her friends knew about it. Teachers occasionally sent her to the counselor’s office. Mary’s other best friend recalls covering for her a lot: “I didn’t think it was my place to confront her about that, given that I was under the impression that she was fearing for her life most of the time.”

One night in mid-February, the police found Mary on campus drunk and sent her home. At least once, her mother called the sheriff, worried that her daughter had run away, or worse. One comment Mary made about wanting to drive off a cliff worried investigators so much they put a GPS unit on her car and kept a laptop with them at all times so they could keep track of her. Mary didn’t know about this. Neither she nor her mom were aware that the retired couple across the street had allowed a camera to be installed on their property, either.

Fliers blew away or were rained on and then replaced. The edges of the rainbow ribbon on my own book bag frayed. The feeling around campus was one of tension, and slight disbelief: They haven’t figured this out yet? Suspects were few, and no theories stuck. Maybe a parent? some wondered. The crimes showed no sign of stopping; if anything they escalated.

Right before the big spring multicultural assembly, which this year would have a big LGBT component, the school’s main office received a threatening letter. “I remember having the police there in force, all over the place,” recalls Curtis, “for fear that there was going to be some horrible thing that some perpetrator was going to try and pull off.”

And then at the end of spring break, in mid-April, five teachers received threatening voicemails. The voice was deep and sounded mechanized. It said: “…force [sic] to tolerate it when we see you every day, we sit in your classes and we tolerate you because we have to. This is our expression: We don’t want you here and it’s just the beginning. We have supporters and will only get bigger. Take your opportunity to leave now.”

“I had to play it a couple times,” recalls one recipient, who, along with his other targeted colleagues I spoke with, asked to remain anonymous. “I didn’t understand what it was saying. It was a little bit cryptic.” At first he wasn’t sure if it was a threat or a prank. “I don’t think I put two and two together until after, when a number of us were targeted and I’m like, ‘Oh, all of us are gay.’ And that’s when a lot of questions started coming through my mind: ‘How did this person know?’”

Mary was turning 18. She and her friends drove out to Muir Beach. They wanted to not think about the attacks. They drank and built a bonfire and planned to spend the night on the cold, gray sand. But Mary was wasted and, Hirten remembers, things got dark: “She was saying, ‘What’s the point of going on? All this keeps happening to me, why is it happening to me?’ At one point she said she wanted to kill herself and we’d all be better off without her.”

After a sheriff kicked them off the beach, they ended up sleeping in their cars. They drove back in thick silence the next day along the winding highway. Hirten says quietly, “I just really didn’t know what to do at that point.”

Nina Hirten says she never suspected the truth. Most of Mary’s former friends and teachers didn’t. I know I surely didn’t. Like many, I remember where I was when I saw the story. It came out on Sunday, May 8, Mother’s Day. It was above the fold, next to an infographic about Marin’s unsolved murders. It declared: “Tam High Anti-Gay Attacks a Hoax.”

“She did admit to police that she basically did it all for attention,” Superintendent Bob Ferguson stated in the story. The police and the story did not name her. It was picked up by the San Francisco Chronicle and the Los Angeles Times. The internet was smaller then, and social media more or less nonexistent. A couple of right-wing bloggers — including Michelle Malkin — reveled in it, asserting that odd, hyper-bigoted point that the occasional fake hate crime somehow disproves the existence of real bigotry.

That Monday, that week, we stood around in hallways and on lawns just asking one another what just happened and mostly why. People were confused, people were furious. I remember a particularly hotheaded peer kicking at a chain-link fence. In a subsequent IJ story, the Perry twins expressed “outrage” at their prior arrest. They demanded Mary be punished. “It’s still a hate crime,” Clayton Andrew Perry said, “She did it to a teacher.” She was never seen from again; we heard she was expelled, that her athletic scholarship to a state school had been rescinded.

She did write an email to her friends the day the story broke. Few wrote back. One of her best friends was so upset by it, she set up a filter to block Mary’s emails and hasn’t had any contact with her since. “It feels to me like the healthy choice, and I feel comfortable with that choice,” she says to me now.

I’d think of all this when I’d see another one of these stories: a lesbian waitress who faked a hateful note. A transgender high schooler who lied about being beat up. I am not surprised, of course, that bigots still revel in such incidents, but am surprised by how others, even LGBT blogs, react insensitively to them. (Take this Queerty roundup about five different fake hate crimes titled “Pants on Fire.”) Of course this anger, the anger our community felt, makes sense: A fake hate crime is like a mutiny, and in giving ammunition to the enemy it hurts the greater — and very real — movement to end LGBT discrimination and hate. But then I’d remember carpooling to a Weird Al concert with her in seventh grade, and waiting after for autographs, or a birthday party in her driveway where we spun our own cotton candy. The idea that she’d done what she had because she was just evil or something never felt like explanation enough.

“I do feel a responsibility to make amends whenever possible,” she wrote when I first approached her. “I’m happy to talk and answer questions, although I may not have any satisfying answers.” I was apparently the first person from our high school with whom she’d had contact in nearly 10 years.

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“It’s the fucking stupidest thing,” she says. We’re sitting in a crowded family-friendly restaurant in a strip mall in the suburb where she now lives, on a Sunday morning. “I had a whole bunch of homework to do and I hadn’t done it. None of it. Hadn’t read anything, hadn’t done the notes. I don’t remember what the assignment was, but it was something that we had a week or two to do and I hadn’t done any of it. So I broke into the locker room and I graffitied my locker. Then the first or second period of the day, they called me out of the office, they said, ‘You can go home if you want to.’ I was like, Sweet. I went home and did my homework.”

She puffs air between her freckled cheeks and meets my eyes, summarizes: “I started a whole fake hate-crime thing with the police so I didn’t have to do my homework.” She stacks her three empty coffee creamers into one another. It had to have been more than that, I say.

“It was the whole situation,” she admits, and the details of the years that had preceded flow out of her: the divorce, the strain between her and her mom, her sister going away to school. The sense that she couldn’t go to a college herself that would add to that financial burden as her friends made preparations to apply out of state. Big conflicts with certain teachers. And then there was the loneliness of being out and feeling like hardly anyone else was. I ask, why cold medicine? “It doesn’t show up on drug tests. It’s really cheap. They sell it two for one at Walgreens.”

Each time she committed another crime, she says, “It was a little like pressure-release valve.’”

“Imagine someone was like, ‘You have zero responsibility now.’” In her voice, I can still hear a glimmer of how incredible she found this effect. She could go to school if she wanted. She could still play sports. Her mom, friends, teachers, and coaches rallied around her, told her how much they loved her: “All that shit that you just wish somebody would have said without there being an explicit reason to.”

She hadn’t anticipated the community being so supportive. She didn’t want the candles, the fliers, the ribbons. She recalls lying on the floor of a classroom as the vigil was starting, not wanting to go. “I was convincing myself that nobody was really being affected by this. I remember feeling it was very victimless, which I now recognize was obviously not true.”

And then there was the problem of needing to escalate the crimes in order to keep everyone engaged. She recorded the voicemails using a computer program that distorts voices. She used a pay phone behind a gas station by the freeway. I ask about this break of pattern — targeting the teachers. This is the element of what she did that I’ve had the hardest time understanding.

“It was probably about calling them out,” she admits. “None of our teachers were really out. Even ones we knew were gay. You definitely got a sense like they wanted to let you know, very old-school gay code shit where you drop hints about things but you never come out and say it. It’s kind of fucked up to be on the other end of that as a gay person, like, ‘Oh, we can’t talk about this.’” But she insists she didn’t do what she did out of a spirit of activism. Her motives were totally selfish: “If I put us two steps forward, I definitely took us 10 steps backward.”

She says she wasn’t thinking about what she was doing in terms of the long-term consequences. She didn’t have some fake person in her imagination who was committing these crimes; she knew on some level that this scenario was becoming less and less believable. She took precautions not to get caught but didn’t imagine what it’d be like when she was arrested. “That’s the level of the hubris that I was working under.”

They matched the voicemails to the pay phone by the gas station and confirmed her car was there at that same time. They called a meeting up at the county courthouse and insisted she meet them there. Meetings like this had become her life. But there was something in the way they insisted she attend the meeting that she suspected she’d been caught. When she got there, they explained who was present: a counselor from the school, her mom — and her dad.

She confessed to everything. They told her she could go home. Her mom took work off the next day. Her sister flew back from college not long after. But she doesn’t remember them sitting down and talking about all that happened, like a big intervention. “That’s how we function. That’s how I function, anyway. It’s my problem. I don’t talk to people about things.”

Her friends totally cutting her off surprised her, she says, choosing her words carefully, emphasizing that she doesn’t blame them. “I accepted that they were going to be very upset with me, but at the same time I felt like if you were a friend, you could talk to somebody while you were upset with them. The isolation set in really fast. Any kind of plan I did have was out the window.”

She and her mom were fighting a lot. She moved out and in with a roommate. She was high all the time. She bought a gun. She confessed to her roommate she was thinking of killing herself when she was fucked up and was committed, held for 24 hours.

She can’t pinpoint when it was that things started getting better. That summer she went on a road trip with her dad, she recalls fondly, and they drove all around America. She started community college classes. She worked as a dog washer, as a barista, in an office. She paid a restitution to the high school, attended meetings with a parole officer, and did community service, for which she volunteered at school. At one point she realized she looked forward to that each day more than anything else, and that informed her decision to be an educator. When she was 19 and working at a summer camp, she met the woman who’d become her wife.

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Their apartment is nearby, up in the hills a bit. It’s modest and carpeted and tidy. There are framed photos of their wedding day — she’s grinning widely, her bride’s in white. A green lawn and big yellow sunflowers. Both of their families. That ceremony was a few years ago, and last summer they married legally. There’s a goldfish and a schedule of meals they’ll cook and take to work each day on the fridge. Her wife, an elementary school teacher, kneels by the coffee table, preparing a model craft project for Monday morning. We stand on her back patio and listen to the freeway and admire the trees. It’s hot for winter, even in California. Hummingbirds zip up and away.

For the first four or five years, she says, she would think about what she did every single night as she fell asleep. She’d wonder what everyone else was doing, what they thought about what had happened. She’d feel tremendous regret. For the relationships she’d ruined. For the fact that she hadn’t realized her actions would ultimately harm the LGBT cause: “Like, how could you not fucking think about that?” she says, raising her voice. “It was all part of not thinking about the end game, not considering what was going to happen.”

But mostly, she’d wonder why she’d done it: “It’s so stupid and so pointless. Not having a good reason — I have somewhat of a reason but it’s not a good reason — so there’s no way to justify to yourself. You’re going to live with that forever: Wow. I did this really horrible shitty thing to all these people for absolutely zero reason.”

That she doesn’t have a good reason makes sense to a clinical psychologist I later talk with, Dr. Michael Friedman. He points out that one of the reasons people like Breaking Bad is that we get to witness how you don’t just go from being a schlubby science teacher to a sociopathic meth kingpin overnight. “Each little individual decision gets made based off where the person is at that moment in their life and the contingencies that are right before them. We inappropriately assume that there’s a cause and then there’s a solution. And we all want to feel more safe.”

The fact that she was a teenager, the fact that she was using drugs, to him these are all the more reason to believe her when she says she doesn’t know why she did what she did. While growing up gay can be and was, for her, isolating, he says that’s an element of this story, not the story. “What I’m hearing in the story is a series of extremely unfortunate things that all kept piling together to create this perfect storm of a moment.”

I’ve always thought of her story as so exceptional, but now I’m thinking about how many of us nearly do things that we’ll regret for the rest of our lives when we’re 17. Some of us, more of us than we’d like to acknowledge, do. There’s a reason juvenile records are sealed, purged, as hers were. She’s been background checked for basically every job she’s ever had and there’s never been a problem. (The first few times were pretty “white knuckle,” she says.)

We’re leaned against the rail, each sipping from a Longboard lager. (“I have Longboard lager or Longboard lager,” she’d joked before.) I find myself trying to grasp at the string of our friendship, which floats by, thin as a spider’s thread on the hot air. I find myself suddenly telling her about how my last 10 years were, recapping whatever struggles I had too. I point out that late high school, early college, is a difficult time for many of us. She chuckles a deep chuckle.

“No, just me. I’m the only special flower who didn’t know what they wanted to be at 17 years old.” She sighs. “And I handled it so beautifully, didn’t I?”

The school she teaches at is in another town, nestled in oak trees. Her classroom is big, with a lab. Cubes with the planets dangle. She wears a blue button-down over a white T-shirt with gray slacks and a wristwatch.

“I was fine grades-wise, but behavior-wise I was a nightmare,” she recalls before the period starts. “And to just look at that and know what my motivations were and to see how I can apply that to my students. So, like, instead of screaming at them and sending them out, just go over and be like, ‘Oh, that’s hilarious, but you need to stop.’ It’s not like they don’t want to be here. It’s that they’re looking for something more from you.”

Being a teacher makes her think back on the adults who invested so much time and energy in her. The day before, it was in discussing one teacher in particular with whom she’d been close, and whom she’d targeted with a voicemail, that she’d verged on tears. (I don’t believe I’ve ever seen her cry.)

“It’s hard when you have 170 kids and you might see that one or two of them is struggling with something but you’ve got a job to do,” she now says.

The mania of children entering, all backpacks and sneakers and chairs squeaking on linoleum — you can tell they respect her, even the boys in the back, the kinds who wear Giants caps, it seems, so that she can authoritatively motion for them to take them off, which they do.

She paces back and forth beneath a hanging potted plant and an American flag and gives a lecture on the carbon cycle. At one point she says the word “combustion” and references an experiment about density she’d done earlier that year, “when I lit that $20 bill on fire.” (It was doused in alcohol and didn’t actually burn.) They titter.

“That means you should go to jail,” one student calls out and they all laugh.

She makes a big faux-surprised face. “Don’t tell anybody,” she says.












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When I was a little kid, I used to love going fishing with my dad…until one fishing trip gone wrong left me soaking wet with my fishing pole submerged in the middle of a small lake. But looking back on those days, there was nothing more satisfying than feeling a tug on my fishing line, […]

The Perfect Place For A Movie

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The Perfect Place For A Movie
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Mike Brown’s Legacy Is Being Memorialized In New Film By Warner Bros.

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Mike Brown’s Legacy Is Being Memorialized In New Film By Warner Bros.
On Thursday, The Tracking Boardreported that Lezley McSpaddens memoir of her son,Tell the Truth & Shame the Devil: The Life, Legacy and Love of My Son Michael Brown,was being adapted into a film.A Warner Bros. representative confirmed with HuffPost on Monday that the movie is indeed in its early development stages. Nonetheless, as Hands up, […]

These Digital Makeovers Of Your Favorite TV And Movie Characters Are Nightmarish

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These Digital Makeovers Of Your Favorite TV And Movie Characters Are Nightmarish
You probably think of your favorite cartoon characters from the past and present as cute, fun, and even a little quirky, but this guy sees them just a bit differently. Wil Hughes is a digital artist from Australia who’s studying animation at Griffith University in Brisbane. He enjoys taking lovable pop culture icons from TV […]

Metroid: The Sky Calls Fan Made Short Film

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Metroid: The Sky Calls Fan Made Short Film
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New Animatronic Cameras Deployed To Film Wildlife Like Never Before

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New Animatronic Cameras Deployed To Film Wildlife Like Never Before
Descending to the floor in the hot, humid rainforest, ared-haired orangutan finds shes been beaten to it. Sitting in the leaf litter is already another orangutan, which turns to acknowledge her presence, makes a soft call, and blinks its eyes. But all is not as it seems. The ape waiting on the floor is not […]

Campo Santo, Good Universe Team for Firewatch Film and More

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Campo Santo, Good Universe Team for Firewatch Film and More
Campo Santo Campo Santo, the videogame development studio behind Firewatch, is teaming up with film production company Good Universe. According to the Hollywood Reporter, the collaboration will include content for both games and films, with the first project being a big-screen adaptation of Firewatch. Firewatch, Campo Santo’s debut game, is one of the best games […]

My Friend Got Married Near Where They Film The Tv

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My Friend Got Married Near Where They Film The Tv
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Movie Week Oct 22 – 29 (A SpursFanFromAround and haramisbae event)

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Movie Week Oct 22 – 29 (A SpursFanFromAround and haramisbae event)
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To Gandalf it is certainly worth it. Movie Week Oct 22-29 (A SpursFanFromAround and haramisbae Event)

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To Gandalf it is certainly worth it. Movie Week Oct 22-29 (A SpursFanFromAround and haramisbae Event)
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Horrifying VR Film Puts You Inside a Drunk Driving Crash

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Horrifying VR Film Puts You Inside a Drunk Driving Crash
If you learned how to drive in the US, theres a good chance you suffered through Red Asphalt—the famously gory drivers ed film the California Highway Patrol has been making and remaking since the 60s. Now the time-honored tradition of scaring teens into staying sober behind the wheel with gruesome images has taken on a […]

Its lit! How film finally learned to light black skin

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Its lit! How film finally learned to light black skin
In lighting, makeup and camera calibration, cinema has pandered to white skin for decades. Now, a new generation of film-makers are keen to ensure people of colour look as good on screen as they should Insecure, the HBO series currently in its terrific second season (#TeamMolly), has been garnering attention since its pilot for its […]

Van Dyke apology: Were there worse UK accents on film? – BBC News

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Van Dyke apology: Were there worse UK accents on film? – BBC News
US actor Dick Van Dyke has apologised for what he called his “atrocious Cockney accent” in Mary Poppins, more than half a century after he played Bert the chimney sweep in the 1964 film. But the peculiarities of UK accents seem notoriously hard for foreign actors to master – so who also stands out for […]

Cristiano Ronaldo film captures giant ego and strange, lonely world of being CR7

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Cristiano Ronaldo film captures giant ego and strange, lonely world of being CR7
Ronaldos rivalry with Messi and extraordinary self-regard are to the fore in this vanity project but the suffering his success has brought his mother and the forwards sheer competitive drive also catch the eye As a snapshot of what life must be like for Cristiano Ronaldo, there is one clip in the Real Madrids Dcima […]

I Am A Film Student…

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I Am A Film Student…
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King Arthur Film Revival Proves a Royal Flop for Warner

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King Arthur Film Revival Proves a Royal Flop for Warner
Turns out movie fans weren’t itching to see another King Arthur movie. Warner Bros.’ pricey new take on the classic English tale, “King Arthur: Legend of the Sword,” opened in third place with estimated weekend sales of $14.7 million in U.S. and Canadian theaters, a tiny sum for a film that cost an estimated $175 […]

She never heard people bad-mouth Appalachia until she left. Now she’s making a film in response.

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She never heard people bad-mouth Appalachia until she left. Now she’s making a film in response.
“Where ya from?” is a question Tijah Bumgarner got a lot after she left her home state. “West Virginia,” she’d reply, when she was waiting tables in Los Angeles and folks noticed her accent. And she knew the follow-up before it was asked. “They’d joke around like look down to see if I was wearing […]

Mom Washed His Favorite Teddy Bear. What She Caught On Film Made Her Burst Into Laughter

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Mom Washed His Favorite Teddy Bear. What She Caught On Film Made Her Burst Into Laughter
Dogs tend to have that one favorite toy that they seem to not be able to go without. Such is the case with this beautiful Golden Retriever. His teddy bear toy has become dirty so it definitely needs some washing. But how long can the Golden One go without his beloved teddy? Well, mom decided […]

D. Bijukumar’s movie ‘Kaadu Pookkunna Neram’ focusses on those oppressed by law

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D. Bijukumar’s movie ‘Kaadu Pookkunna Neram’ focusses on those oppressed by law
D. Bijukumar has made a name as a filmmaker who does not hesitate to take a strong political stand in his movies. His new film, Kaadu Pookkunna Neram (When The Forest blooms), is no different. It also Read more: http://www.thehindu.com/features/cinema/d-bijukumars-movie-kaadu-pookkunna-neram-focusses-on-those-oppressed-by-law/article9031594.ece?utm_source=RSS_Feed&utm_medium=RSS&utm_campaign=RSS_Syndication

How Design Legend Saul Bass Changed Film and TV Forever

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How Design Legend Saul Bass Changed Film and TV Forever
The next time you watch Alfred Hitchcock’sPsycho, pay close attention to the film’s iconic showerscene. Note the quick cut-aways, extreme close-ups, and sharp shooting angles. These stylistic decisions amount to adecidedly un-Hitchcockian aesthetic. That might be because Hitchcock didn’t direct it.Rumor in Hollywood isthat the murder scene was actually the work of Saul Bass. The […]

19 Incredible Tricks To Make Waxing Less Painful

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19 Incredible Tricks To Make Waxing Less Painful
Go forth and be hairless. Minus the excruciating pain. View this image › Getty Images/iStockphoto koufax73 BuzzFeed Life spoke with makeup artist and esthetician for Bliss Spa Leyda about all of her weird and wonderful tricks for making waxing less painful. Whether you’re going to the salon or you’re more of a DIY wax person, […]

If A Movie Is Made About Pope Francis…

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If A Movie Is Made About Pope Francis…
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Kodaks CEO Uses 35mm Film As A Business Card

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Kodaks CEO Uses 35mm Film As A Business Card
Clarke seems to think so; one of his big announcements came when he unveiled a hybrid reboot of the Super 8 camera at the show. The camera comes with a digital viewfinder to help frame shots, but those shots are captured on Super 8 Kodak film. Almost finished… To complete the subscription process, please click […]

Stop Motion Film Reimagines The ‘Pure Imagination’ From Willy Wonka

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Stop Motion Film Reimagines The ‘Pure Imagination’ From Willy Wonka
We all know the classic song “Pure Imagination” from Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory, but you’ve never heard it like this before. In his short film “Imagination,” Marc Donahue uses stop-motion animation and a sea of childhood toys and props to take us into the mind of a playing child. You’ll see some of your […]

Four Indian films to compete at the first BRICS Film Festival – Times of India

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Four Indian films to compete at the first BRICS Film Festival – Times of India
At the last BRICS Summit, Indian Prime Minister Narendra Modi had proposed a BRICS Film Festival and film awards. On Wednesday, the names of the films that will compete at the 1st BRICS Film Festival was announced. Read more: http://timesofindia.indiatimes.com/india/Four-Indian-films-to-compete-at-the-first-BRICS-Film-Festival/articleshow/53847105.cms

The Original Uses For These 11 Popular Products Will Shock You.

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The Original Uses For These 11 Popular Products Will Shock You.
When things don’t turn out like you expected them to, it can be very frustrating. But for these products many of us use on a daily basis, it’s actually a good thing. You probably don’t realize this, but many of the products you use every day were “happy accidents.” Even your favorite childhood toys like the […]

Watch This Legend of Zelda Chinese Crime Drama Short Film, and Potentially Love the Sh*t out of It

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Watch This Legend of Zelda Chinese Crime Drama Short Film, and Potentially Love the Sh*t out of It
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Flying Lotus Directed a Short Film, and It Is Seriously NSFW

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Flying Lotus Directed a Short Film, and It Is Seriously NSFW
Steven Ellison is perhaps best known by his stage name, Flying Lotus,but soon enough, film fans might start referring to him as “steve.” That’s the monikeryes, lowercasethat Ellison is using as hetakes his first steps into directing: His debut short film, Royal, premieresthis weekendat the Sundance NEXT Fest in Los Angeles. It’s not a completely […]

This Is The True Story Behind Annabelle, A New Horror Movie. I’m Still Spooked.

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This Is The True Story Behind Annabelle, A New Horror Movie. I’m Still Spooked.
A brand new horror flick from director John R. Leonetti is creeping into theaters on October 3rd. Annabelle, a spin-off from 2013’s popular The Conjuring, will tell the story of a very creepy haunted doll. As it turns out, the stories the movie is based on are also very creepy… and very real. Like it’s predecessor, this new […]

Did You Know That Big Budget Movies Actually Copy Scenes All The Time?

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Did You Know That Big Budget Movies Actually Copy Scenes All The Time?
Director Ed Wood was infamous for piecing together stock footage to complete his low-budget films. As a result, his cult classic Plan 9 from Outer Space is widely regarded as, well, the worst movie of all time. But he’s not the only director guilty of copying and pasting to save a buck. It’s no surprise […]

‘Moonlight’ Ballet Is A Gorgeous Tribute To The Oscar-Winning Film

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‘Moonlight’ Ballet Is A Gorgeous Tribute To The Oscar-Winning Film
Critics have described Barry Jenkins Moonlight the stunning filmawarded Best Picture at the Academy Awardson Sundayas a cinematicpoem, in part because of its masterful score, stretches of silence, and piercing use of color. Under a blue luminosity reminiscent of the moons glare, dancers Jamar Roberts, Christopher Taylor and Jeremy T. Villas move to the films […]

Movie Filming Happening In Front Of House…

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Movie Filming Happening In Front Of House…
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18 Times Black Actors Nailed Why We Need Representation In Film

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18 Times Black Actors Nailed Why We Need Representation In Film
Over the past few weeks, the conversation surrounding diversity and inclusion in Hollywood has reached a boiling point, thanks in part to the popularity of the #OscarsSoWhite hashtag. More and more black people in Hollywood are calling out the lack of representation in film and television — from Will Smith and Jada Pinkett, to Idris […]

While Hunting For A Legendary Creature, This Woman Met A Terrible Fate

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While Hunting For A Legendary Creature, This Woman Met A Terrible Fate
In a truly tragic twist of fate, a woman was killed by a train while trying to hunt down a cryptozoological being that’s known to lure people onto the tracks. Roquel Bain and her boyfriend were visiting Louisville, Kentucky, from Ohio when they decided to stalk the legendary Pope Lick Monster, which is a mythological […]

His Neighbor’s Dog Was His BFF, But Then He Moved Away. Watch Them Reunite!

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His Neighbor’s Dog Was His BFF, But Then He Moved Away. Watch Them Reunite!
When you live in one place for a long time, you get to know your neighbors. For better or for worse, they’re part of your life in one way or another. An 11-year-old boy named Lennox Goebel got to know one of his neighbors really well, but it wasn’t one of the human variety. Lennox […]

‘Moonlight’ Writer Dedicates Film To All POC And Gender-Nonconforming

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‘Moonlight’ Writer Dedicates Film To All POC And Gender-Nonconforming
The 89th Academy Awards on Sunday werent lacking in high-key socio-political statements, one of which came from Moonlight playwright Tarell Alvin McCraney. The original play titledIn Moonlight Black Boys Look Blue and written over a decade ago was inspired by McCraneys own life experiences. Black and brown boys and girls and gender non-conformingwho dont see […]

Pursuit (4K) A Stormlapse Film by Mike Olbinski

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Pursuit (4K)  A Stormlapse Film by Mike Olbinski
Pursuit (4K) is the latest stormlapse film by renowned photographer and storm chaser Mike Olbinski. The film also features an incredible original score by musician Peter Nanasi. On Vimeo, Mike adds: The work on this film began on March 28th and ended June 29th. There were 27 total days of actual chasing and many more […]

This Short Film About A Disabled Puppy Won So Many Awards. The Ending Will Warm Your Heart.

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This Short Film About A Disabled Puppy Won So Many Awards. The Ending Will Warm Your Heart.
This short film played in over 180 festivals and won more than 50 awards! The guys behind The Present, Jacob Frey and Markus Kranzler, are now releasing it for the rest of the world to view and enjoy! Its based on a comic strip by Brazilian artist Fabio Coala. So it starts out with a […]

This Viral Short Film About 2 Gay Boys Has The Internet Crying

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This Viral Short Film About 2 Gay Boys Has The Internet Crying
Gather round, y’all, because I’m about to show you the cutest thing you’ll see all day (read: millennium). A new short film has surfaced online, and it is exactly the kind of wholesome we need to see this year. The film, calledwas made as a portion oftwo students’ senior theses at Ringling College of Art […]

The Truly Outrageous First Photo From “Jem And The Holograms”

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The Truly Outrageous First Photo From “Jem And The Holograms”
The cartoon has come to life! View this image › Pictured from left to right: Hayley Kiyoko, Aubrey Peeples and Stefanie Scott. Justina Mintz/Universal Pictures The beloved ’80s cartoon Jem and the Holograms is getting a modern-day update thanks to director Jon M. Chu, and on Thursday, Universal released the first-look photo from the movie. […]

Salman Khan bats for Akshay Kumar’s ‘Rustom’

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Salman Khan bats for Akshay Kumar’s ‘Rustom’
In a special video, Bollywood superstar Salman Khan has urged fans to go to theatres and watch his friend, actor Akshay Kumar’s upcoming movie ‘Rustom.’ Calling Akshay, the “Rustom-e-Hind’ of the fil Read more: http://www.thehindu.com/entertainment/salman-khan-bats-for-akshay-kumars-rustom/article8937426.ece?utm_source=RSS_Feed&utm_medium=RSS&utm_campaign=RSS_Syndication

This New Film Is Important. Here’s What Life Is Like For The Kids Who Inspired It.

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This New Film Is Important. Here’s What Life Is Like For The Kids Who Inspired It.

No, This Isn’t An Abandoned Building In Hell. It’s Much, Much More Horrifying… Trust Me.

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No, This Isn’t An Abandoned Building In Hell. It’s Much, Much More Horrifying… Trust Me.
There are places in this “modern” world that are so backwards and dirty, they seem like they have been pulled straight from the Middle Ages. These pictures were taken of a hospital allegedly in Boyarkino village, Russia. It is not far from Moscow, a major city center, but what you will see here will make you […]

Hey Rarity, You’ve Seen That Movie?

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Hey Rarity, You’ve Seen That Movie?
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Gird your loins: Michael Moore claims his new film will finally take Trump down

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Gird your loins: Michael Moore claims his new film will finally take Trump down
He said he could stand in the middle of 5th Ave & shoot someone & nothing would happen. He finally shot someone – himself. Anything hap'n'? — Michael Moore (@MMFlint) May 15, 2017 Great. Just what we needed: Weinsteins have acquired rights to Michael Moore's surprise documentary Fahrenheit 11/9, which refers to the day Trump […]

The mask was bought for $2 – Movie Week ( A SpursFanFromAround and haramisbae event)

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This short film about a dog and his owner will bring a smile to your face

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This short film about a dog and his owner will bring a smile to your face
Cooking dinner after a long, hard day at work can be tough, unless you have a dog like the one in this video to help you out. Madeline Sharafian’s delightful animated short is guaranteed to bring a smile to your face. Read more: http://www.wimp.com/this-short-film-about-a-dog-and-his-owner-will-bring-a-smile-to-your-face/

Bet you can’t guess which presidential film MSNBC is ‘revisiting’ next week

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Bet you can’t guess which presidential film MSNBC is ‘revisiting’ next week
In a not-so-subtle attempt to feed a narrative, MSNBC is going to revisit Watergate and the 1976 film “All the President’s Men” next week. .@MSNBC revisits Watergate & the film it inspired with those who lived it. Watch All the Presidents Men Revisited Sat, 6/17 @ 9pm ET pic.twitter.com/48kcdsaWcF — MSNBC (@MSNBC) June 11, 2017 […]

This Little Girl With Down Syndrome Sings The Best Cover Of Let It Go. AWW.

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This Little Girl With Down Syndrome Sings The Best Cover Of Let It Go. AWW.
Since it’s release almost a year ago, there have been about million covers of the anthemic ballad “Let it Go” from Disney’s wildly popular animated film Frozen. Actually, probably more like a million and a half. With each new incarnation of the empowering song, originally sung by cast member and Broadway icon Idina Menzel, is a fresh attempt to […]

Someone Turned Star Wars Into An 80’s High School Love Story. It’s Incredible.

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Someone Turned Star Wars Into An 80’s High School Love Story. It’s Incredible.
Star Wars was possibly the greatest movie series in the history of cinema. However, with success comes parody and, thousands of parodies later, it’s getting harder and harder to find a new perspective on the movies. Enter Deviantart user DenisM79. He wanted to try his hand at flipping the classic story on its head and ummmmmm… MISSION […]

35 Mice Watched the Cult Film Touch of Evil for Science

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35 Mice Watched the Cult Film Touch of Evil for Science
What do mice feel at the movies? Joy and sadness? Inspiration and confusion? Do they think about their place in the universe, about theconsequences of their actions? Different people will think those questions are either jokes or serious philosophical inquiries. Really, theyre just statements of ignorance. Brains are complicated, and theres still a lot that […]

It Started As A Little Girl’s Very Normal Bedroom. Wait Til You See What Her Dad Did… Holy Cow!

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It Started As A Little Girl’s Very Normal Bedroom. Wait Til You See What Her Dad Did… Holy Cow!
What this amazing father decided to build for his daughter will put a huge smile on your face. He build her her very own castle bed, complete with a bunch of neat features like a slide, a computer desk area fitted with its own desk lamp, bookshelves and of course, a layer of pink paint […]

This Deadpool Pancake Is The Single Greatest Pancake You’ll Ever See – Wow

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This Deadpool Pancake Is The Single Greatest Pancake You’ll Ever See – Wow
The Deadpool movie has recently taken the film industry by storm after breaking all types of records at the box office. The hype surrounding the flick has a lot of people interested in this hilarious comic book character, a guy with an odd love of pancakes…well, maybe not so odd, since pancakes are awesome! In […]

These Guys Caught The True Power Of Tornadoes On Film, And It’s So Harrowing

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These Guys Caught The True Power Of Tornadoes On Film, And It’s So Harrowing

This Is What Oscar-Nominated Film Posters Would Look Like If They Were Honest

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This Is What Oscar-Nominated Film Posters Would Look Like If They Were Honest
Ah, awards season — that magical time of year when we’re reminded of just how little celebrities have in common with us, since their dresses cost more than our cars and they make more money for breathing than we do pulling 40-hour weeks. That being said, movies are great, and it’s pretty cool to watch […]

4 Harsh Truths That Will Improve How You Watch TV And Film

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4 Harsh Truths That Will Improve How You Watch TV And Film
If you look at television and film in an objective way, step back and view it as an outsider, an alien, maybe, who has never seen such things, you would be forgiven for thinking most people in the world are crazy peoples who waste their time being infatuated with nothingness. Let’s be honest: In the […]

Woman Claims Watching 3d Film Made Her Pregnant

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Woman Claims Watching 3d Film Made Her Pregnant
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Palestinian festival told to cancel film screening amid boycott campaign

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Palestinian festival told to cancel film screening amid boycott campaign
Ramallah (CNN)It was supposed to be an evening of celebration, a gala presentation of a movie which won its star, Palestinian Kamel El Basha, the best actor award at the Venice Film Festival last month. He was due to be recognized for his Venice award — the first time an Arab actor had been given […]

His Daughters Were Going To Film Themselves Dancing, Then Dad Jumped In

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His Daughters Were Going To Film Themselves Dancing, Then Dad Jumped In
Dads are usually pretty serious guys. They are stern with their discipline, and they often have a no-nonsense approach to parenting. But a lot of dads know how to cut loose when need be, like this guy whose daughters planned on filming themselves dancing. They had no idea that their dad was about to join […]

wrong movie gandalf

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wrong movie gandalf
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A supercomputer created the scariest film trailer of the year

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A supercomputer created the scariest film trailer of the year
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10 Things I Learned From Producing My First Feature Film

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10 Things I Learned From Producing My First Feature Film
Soon after launching her own production company, Rizk Pictures, Alex teamed up with writer / director Ryan Eggold on the feature film Literally, Right Before Aaron. Founder, Rizk Pictures 1. When things are busy in your personal life, it’s helpful to funnel your energy into work. While producing the movie, I got engaged, planned a wedding, […]

Ultimate Every Modern Disney Animated Film Mash Up Music Video

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Ultimate Every Modern Disney Animated Film Mash Up Music Video
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This Film Theorist Calculated Exactly How Drunk Tyrion Lannister Is on Game of Thrones

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This Film Theorist Calculated Exactly How Drunk Tyrion Lannister Is on Game of Thrones
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21 Things You Probably Didn’t Know About Your Fave Aussie Shows

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21 Things You Probably Didn’t Know About Your Fave Aussie Shows
Mr Squiggle draws upside down because the artist controls him via his hat from above! 1. Lift Off was based on the ideas of a Harvard University psychologist, with the show being specifically designed for the toddler mind.2. On Neighbours only six houses are ever seen on screen in Ramsay Street – Numbers 22, 24, […]

This Womans Upcoming Disney Film Will Be a Huge Milestone For Women of Color

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This Womans Upcoming Disney Film Will Be a Huge Milestone For Women of Color
2 Back in February, the studio announced that DuVernay would be the director of the much-anticipated film adaptation of the literary classic A Wrinkle in Time by Madeleine L’Engle. via: Instagram Not only is this big news for fans of Disney and the book, but it was also a big step forward for women of […]

It’s Mine, No Mine! (‘-‘) (Ice Age Week) and (Movie Week) A Jesus_Milk, SpursFanFromAround and haramisbae event!

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It’s Mine, No Mine! (‘-‘) (Ice Age Week) and (Movie Week) A Jesus_Milk, SpursFanFromAround and haramisbae event!
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Vin Diesel Officially Unveils The Title Of The Eighth Fast And The Furious Film!

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Vin Diesel Officially Unveils The Title Of The Eighth Fast And The Furious Film!
Aaaaaaand we’ve got a title! The actor posted a simple pic with no comment on the social network, but he revealed all we need to know about what’s up with the next installment in the action series (below)!!! A photo posted by Vin Diesel (@vindiesel) on Jan 15, 2016 at 2:39pm PST And there you […]

Carrie Brownsteins New Social Media Satire Film Is Brilliant

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Carrie Brownsteins New Social Media Satire Film Is Brilliant
Social media leads people to say a lot of things that arent literally true: ILU, LoL, Thats cute. In her new short film, Portlandia star and Sleater-Kinney singer/guitarist Carrie Brownstein makes that notion all too real. In the short, produced by Kenzo—which is on a roll with this and their Spike Jonze-directed perfume ad—a young […]

Dunkirk Opens as Top Film, While Pricey Valerian Flops

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Dunkirk Opens as Top Film, While Pricey Valerian Flops
The World War II epic “Dunkirk,” a potential Oscar contender from director Christopher Nolan, led the domestic box office in its debut, while the costly science-fiction film “Valerian and the City of a Thousand Planets” flopped with movie fans. “Dunkirk,” from Nolan, who directed Warner Bros.’ successful “Dark Knight” films, returns with a movie that some […]

A long journey

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A long journey
Pitched against established choreographers in the film industry, dancer-choreographer, Geeta Kapur has a carved a niche for herself. Fondly called as Geeta Maa she has become the first choice of the d Read more: http://www.thehindu.com/features/friday-review/a-long-journey/article8942988.ece?utm_source=RSS_Feed&utm_medium=RSS&utm_campaign=RSS_Syndication

A Deer’s Reaction To Seeing The Ocean For The First Time Is Beyond Cute

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A Deer’s Reaction To Seeing The Ocean For The First Time Is Beyond Cute
Do you remember the first time you saw the ocean? Even if you don’t, you can imagine how wonderful it was…the cool waves lapping at your feet. When French filmmaker Anthony Martin captured this video of a deer experiencing the ocean for the very first time, he wasn’t expecting her reaction to be similar to […]

Shia LaBeouf film sells one ticket in UK

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Shia LaBeouf film sells one ticket in UK
(CNN)Will the one person who purchased a ticket to see Shia LaBeouf’s new war movie please step forward? “Man Down” opened in the UK this weekend, and Variety reported that only one ticket was purchased. The film screened at a single theater, Reel Cinema in Burnley, England, and according to the cross platform measurement company […]

Mya Taylor Is Now The First Transgender Actress To Win A Major Film Award

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Mya Taylor Is Now The First Transgender Actress To Win A Major Film Award
Mya Taylor just made history: On Saturday afternoon, she became the first transgender performer to win a high-profile Hollywood accolade.  Honored for her work in “Tangerine,” Taylor took home the Film Independent Spirit Award for Best Supporting Female. It marked the culmination of a lengthy awards season for the movie, whose distributor, Magnolia Pictures, staged a […]

Angelina Jolie Was Nervous To Film Her By The Sea Nude Scenes After Double Mastectomy

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Angelina Jolie Was Nervous To Film Her By The Sea Nude Scenes After Double Mastectomy
As an actress, Angelina Jolie has always been fearless. At least, that’s what we thought! The writer, director, and star of the upcoming By The Sea, which costars hubby Brad Pitt, says being naked on camera for the first time since her double mastectomy was daunting. Video: Angelina & Brad Sit Down For A Rare […]

Nominated Iranian Film Star Boycotting The Oscars Over Trump’s ‘Racist’ Visa Ban!

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Nominated Iranian Film Star Boycotting The Oscars Over Trump’s ‘Racist’ Visa Ban!
Good for her!! One of Iranian’s biggest stars, Taraneh Alidoosti, is taking a stand against Donald Trump! Yas! Even though the 33-year-old actress’ movie The Salesman is nominated for an Academy Award for Best Foreign Language Film, she has decided to boycott the Oscars this year in light of Drumpf’s “racist” visa ban.

11 Things You Probably Didn’t Know About Memory

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11 Things You Probably Didn’t Know About Memory
Yes, false memories are a real thing. 1. Walking into a new room actually makes you forget what you went in there for. View this image › hogarthpress.tumblr.com Ever go into a room and then completely forget what you went in there for? Turns out it’s an actual thing scientists have studied. In a study […]

The Right turn?

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The Right turn?
A dipstick of films made during the NDA rule indicates the Hindutva or the so-called nationalist slant is increasingly finding its way into storylines. A couple of weeks back we had a film called Dish Read more: http://www.thehindu.com/features/metroplus/the-right-turn/article8981658.ece?utm_source=RSS_Feed&utm_medium=RSS&utm_campaign=RSS_Syndication

I did a short film with Sean Astin that you might like

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I did a short film with Sean Astin that you might like
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Jason Alexander looks vagnificent. Movie vagic is amazing. So vagical. Star Trek Week! Nov. 20th to the 27th

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Jason Alexander looks vagnificent. Movie vagic is amazing. So vagical. Star Trek Week! Nov. 20th to the 27th
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They Wanted To Do Dog Shows With Their Pup So They Did Something Truly Insane

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They Wanted To Do Dog Shows With Their Pup So They Did Something Truly Insane
Accepting your body for what it is can be a difficult task for both men and women. While most of us learn to accept our bodies, flaws and all, others focus their attention on even the smallest imperfection and seek ways to cover up their insecurities or fix the problem once and for all. One […]

This Batman Cosplay is Better Than Most Film Portrayals

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This Batman Cosplay is Better Than Most Film Portrayals
Julian Checkley‘s Arkham Origins Batman cosplay is flat out one of the coolest things we’ve ever seen.  The armor itself is 3D printed, and comes fully equipped with some incredible gadgets.  Check it out: order66effects order66effects Via: 4 And folding batarangs! order66effects order66effects Via: 7 Via: 8 Via:

This film depicting the symmetry of the London Underground is oddly soothing

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This film depicting the symmetry of the London Underground is oddly soothing
Commuting through the busy London Underground, one rarely thinks to stop and appreciate its beauty. SEE ALSO: This man’s celebrity encounter on the Tube is just glorious In the video above, filmmakers Guus ter Beek and Tayfun Sarier have created a homage to London’s iconic underground rail system. The film is a satisfyingly symmetrical supercut […]

Lindsay Lohan Is Shooting Her First Film In Years!

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Lindsay Lohan Is Shooting Her First Film In Years!
Lindsay Lohan is back on the film scene and ready to make some movie magic again! On Monday, the 29-year-old took to Instagram to announce that she’s officially started working on a new movie, titled The Shadow Within! Photo: Lindsay Dressed Up Like Sharon Tate On Charles Manson’s Birthday! She shared this sweet snap (above), […]

My favorite Five Second Film.

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My favorite Five Second Film.
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Apple fired the engineer who let his daughter film an iPhone X

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Apple fired the engineer who let his daughter film an iPhone X
Brooke Amelia Peterson, who filmed a video of the iPhone X before its release, revealed in a YouTube video that her father had been fired for letting her get the footage. Peterson’s father was a radio frequency engineer at Apple. She filmed the iPhone X in the Apple cafeteria, in the open, but no one […]

Indian cinema in Oz

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Indian cinema in Oz
A few days from now, and a few thousand miles away from here, the Indian film industry will be celebrated. The Indian Film Festival Melbourne (IFFM), an initiative of the Victorian Government, is set Read more: http://www.thehindu.com/features/metroplus/indian-cinema-in-oz/article8859969.ece?utm_source=RSS_Feed&utm_medium=RSS&utm_campaign=RSS_Syndication

Bollywood comes to Yorkshire – and helps the UK film industry strike Gold – BBC News

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Bollywood comes to Yorkshire – and helps the UK film industry strike Gold – BBC News
One of the actors in Doncaster was Bollywood superstar Akshay Kumar, who is above the likes of Tom Hanks, Ryan Gosling and Ryan Reynolds on Forbes magazine’s latest list of the world’s best-paid actors. Image caption Doncaster Racecourse does a good impression of Berlin’s 1936 Olympic Stadium “I came here because I liked the locations,” […]

Chelsea Handler will lead ‘Women’s March’ at the Sundance Film Festival

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Chelsea Handler will lead ‘Women’s March’ at the Sundance Film Festival
Chelsea Handler speaks at the Ms. Foundation for Women Gloria Awards at Cipriani 42nd Street on Thursday, May 1, 2014 in New York.Image: Scott Roth/Invision/AP Chelsea Handler will lead a “Women’s March” down Main Street in Park City, Utah, during the Sundance Film Festival later this month to coincide with the Women’s March in Washington, […]

The Happy Film: Famed Designer Stefan Sagmeisters Wild, Unsettling Pursuit of Bliss

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The Happy Film: Famed Designer Stefan Sagmeisters Wild, Unsettling Pursuit of Bliss
Watching designer Stefan Sagmeisters autobiographical documentary, The Happy Film, will not leaveyou significantly happier afterward. But the fast-paced, painfully honest, stressfully contemplative movie, co-directed with Ben Nabors and the late Hillman Curtis, will trigger rushes of insight, empathy and voyeuristic pleasure. In the film, Sagmeister—the prominent graphic designer known for what Id call environmental performance […]

Cloaking Film for Windows Blacks Out the Screens Within

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Cloaking Film for Windows Blacks Out the Screens Within
The modern workplace has a cultural problem. Open-plan offices and glass-walled conference rooms promote transparency, but they also make it impossible to conduct business privately. Anything requiring discretion—quarterly reports, year-end bonuses, or secret projects—calls for ominous workarounds. “We’ve all had the experience of walking into an office and there’s brown butcher paper taped up to […]

The Best Animated Film of the Year Confronts Islamic Misogyny

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The Best Animated Film of the Year Confronts Islamic Misogyny
Animation is traditionally the province of kids stuff, and that holds true for The Breadwinner as wellexcept for the fact that, in the world it depicts, kids stuff is anything but childish. Set in Afghanistan circa 2001, director Nora Twomeys adaptation of Deborah Ellis best-selling novel is a somber, violence-wracked saga of discrimination and hardship, […]

The Mini Film Studio Operating Inside Clintons Campaign

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The Mini Film Studio Operating Inside Clintons Campaign
The shot comes about two minutes and thirty-four seconds into the video. A mother in her late 60s, dressed in a cream-colored suit, stands in an almost empty room, watching her daughter on TV. As her daughter speaks, the mother turns to the woman who is seated next to her, and squeals: Ohhhh she looks […]

These Over-Used Movie Poster Cliches Reveal a LOT More About the Film Than You Realize

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These Over-Used Movie Poster Cliches Reveal a LOT More About the Film Than You Realize
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Kalpana 2: This one neither scares you nor makes you laugh

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Kalpana 2: This one neither scares you nor makes you laugh
A popular belief in the Kannada film industry today is that if you include a ghost in your film it will be successful. , which is a remake of Raghava Lawrence’s , might have thought of cashing in on Read more: http://www.thehindu.com/features/cinema/cinema-reviews/kalpana-2-this-one-neither-scares-you-nor-makes-you-laugh/article8859690.ece?utm_source=RSS_Feed&utm_medium=RSS&utm_campaign=RSS_Syndication

‘I’ll Save You!’ Adorable Bulldog Tries To Save Her Favorite Actor From Bear Attack

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‘I’ll Save You!’ Adorable Bulldog Tries To Save Her Favorite Actor From Bear Attack
One of the most talked about movies last year was “The Revenant.” It’s a story about survival, and after always coming up short in the past, the gritty film finally won Leonardo DiCaprio his first Oscar for Best Actor. There’s one scene in the movie that I heard about way before entering the theater, however, […]

This Is The Best Disney Movie…

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This Is The Best Disney Movie…
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‘Game Of Thrones’ Season 8 Will Film In Spain, Here’s What That Means For Season 7

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‘Game Of Thrones’ Season 8 Will Film In Spain, Here’s What That Means For Season 7
In a normal season, this coming Sunday would be the finale of Episode 10, and we would all be currently reeling from the major shock moments of Episode 9. But in between our coverage of the season finale, we would also be starting to get excited for the next season, as this is the period […]

What 2016 Would Look Like As A Horror Film

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What 2016 Would Look Like As A Horror Film
Friend Dog Studios present: “2016: The Movie (Trailer)”. Trending right now with over 400,000 views already. Only one day left until it is finally over… “It’s the horror movie of the year. Literally.” via: sploid Read more: https://www.viralviralvideos.com/2016/12/31/2016-look-like-horror-film/
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